I’m sorry for not asking permission. I didn’t actually mean to do any of that at all, I was trying to fix my mistake. It’s not a joke and it’s not funny, I’m just the stupidest person that ever lived. Please have mercy on my soul, Lord.
I like golf and jazz like my Dad now. He’s right about everything. I’m dumb. I think all the stuff I ever listened to is bad and I just couldn’t see it. Even after I switched to upbeat stuff that wasn’t good either it turns out. I’m scared of it all now. I didn’t know it was so bad. I’ll just listen to what my Dad listens to.
As long as nobody gets hurt. But that includes everyone connected. And that’s infinitely complicated. So that’s why the rules are there. Please Lord, save my eternal soul.
I was wrong about everything, it was all delusional nonsense. I over took my medication and I was being yelled at from all sides and pressured and I lost my temper and went mad. I was taking drugs I shouldn’t have been taking, trying to find a way to withstand the stress.
The Bible is the Word of God. Jesus is the Son of God, God in the flesh come to Earth to die on the cross for our sins. I am a sinner and I deserve eternal punishment. My only salvation is through the Lord Jesus Christ. I am sorry, Lord.
Everyone is totally great, except me, I’m a massive turd. I screwed up everything, just forget it.
I wish I never met Terry. He was just as stupid as me. I don’t think he understood what he was saying either. It was part of my path for a reason though. And it’s important to forgive everyone. I got it wrong, I’m no Messiah. I’m a wannabe loser. I’m actually a massive loser all around. I’m a coward and a failure. I am literally the worst. I sought self glorification instead of glorifying God which is what I should have done all along. But imitation is the most sincere form of flattery. And it didn’t start that way. I didn’t even name my own game. And it started off with good intentions, kind of. But I idolized Nintendo, I thought that was an ok thing, and I didn’t understand the culture differences. That’s mostly innocent but I didn’t pay attention in Church, or didn’t understand that’s what idolatry was. I accept that everything is the result of my own stupid decisions and unwillingness to face and repent of my sins. I’m not actually gay, I don’t think. I think it’s just the result of sexual perversion. I just looked at porn when I shouldn’t have and I didn’t listen to my Mom. And I took advantage of what was offered to me and didn’t listen to anyone. I tried to make a lie the truth and tried to fix it by making money to help people. And then that twisted me and it turned into a mess because I couldn’t understand why people didn’t like me, but I figured it out and tried to undo it. I am a horrible, wretched sinner. I had no idea how horrible the things I said were, I was just super mad. Screw all of that. Please, please have mercy on me, Lord. Please have mercy on all of us. It’s all our faults. I had Sunday School but I couldn’t figure out which one was true, science or religion. I thought it had to be one or the other. It’s actually both of them simultaneously. School teaches you sex education but doesn’t explain that your soul joins with a woman when you sleep together. That’s true also, and the Lord sees everything. Technology is liberal counterculture, it’s based on psychedelics and stimulants. Japanese people aren’t Christian so they don’t have a problem with that. Sorcery in the Bible translates to drug abuse, but it probably implies using it for destructive means. I figured that out and that’s why I gave up on my game and turned it into a warning instead. There isn’t inherently anything wrong with these tools, it’s how you use them. Drug abuse and sexual immorality are both absolutely deadly sins, so it’s not something to take lightly. Don’t do them, period. Jesus is the Son of God who died on the cross to save us from eternal punishment. He commands us to be servants and to love one another. Technology is inherently about power, control, and politics, which is the opposite of loving and serving one another. It can be a useful tool, but life is to be lived, not wasted obsessively building stuff trying to gain power. We don’t need more technology. It’s at a point where it’s not good anymore. I was wrong. Everything Jesus said was perfect, that’s how we know that he was truly divine. Jesus is God. Don’t believe in yourself, believe in Jesus. We are all slaves to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, who died on the cross to forgive our sins. We are all to blame, that’s what he says. It’s all of our faults. We all screwed up, we were all wrong. That’s what Jesus says. And our only hope of salvation is to await the Lord’s return. Please have mercy on us all, Lord. I don’t know if we are in a hologram and we can manifest stuff or not. Jesus could. But we aren’t Him and I’m pretty sure we have to do work for things to happen. We need to grow food and drive it to stores in trucks, I’m pretty sure. Also, again, I was completely wrong and stupid about everything. I’m just stupid and I went crazy. I don’t know anything except that Jesus is the Lord.
Screw technology, screw robots, screw computers, screw phones, screw VR, screw games, screw gay trans pride space communism, screw it all. It’s evil. It’s mind control and it’s leading us straight into hell. I was wrong about everything. I wasted my life. I’m a stupid fool. We need Jesus Christ. The Bible is extremely clear. He told us exactly what to do. This is a broken world, he came to save us, and we are to follow His instructions. Go to Church. Read the Gospels. Repent and seek salvation. I went mad and used stupid words I shouldn’t have. I’m stupid, I was bullied into it, I was tricked, I was absolutely wrong, it is my fault, and that’s ok. We are all to blame, that’s exactly what Jesus says, and that’s how it is, and that’s how we can know for absolute certain that Jesus Christ indeed was the Son of God who died on the cross for our sins. Forgiveness is the only way to salvation.
Computers are bad, technology is bad, dance games are bad, electronic music is bad, drugs are bad. It’s all bad. I was wrong and stupid. There are uses for them. Some things there are no uses for, like pornography. Just get rid of it. But there is only one God, Jesus Christ our Lord. Go to Church, read the Bible. Get rid of the damn phones and computers and stupid crap. I thought I was doing something good by trying to bring in money but I wasn’t, it’s not good. But I can at least do one good thing. Jesus is the LORD! Just work a normal job and obey the rules. I was tricked by the devil and I’m sorry. But maybe that’s my job is to catch the ball and stop the cycle. Cancel transistors. Cancel computers. Cancel Apple. Cancel dance games. Read your Bible, go to Church, and seek the Lord. No we don’t need to cancel everything. But cancel dance games. They are stupid. Leave it in Japan. Japan needs Jesus. Send them Bibles. That’s why it says don’t play it outside of Japan. I was tricked. It’s spiritual warfare. They aren’t Christian. Go for a walk with your wife. Go jogging. Run on a treadmill. I’m stupid and evil and wrong and I hate myself. Don’t do it. Throw them away and send them back to hell. You can only serve God or money. I’m serving God. You should too. Don’t try to get rich, get a decent job and manage your money properly. Don’t fall for evil politics. It’s evil and against God. Don’t do drugs. Don’t have any sexual immorality. Don’t have sex outside of marriage. Don’t do gay stuff. The proper way to address this stuff is to accept it and forgive it but formally discourage it. You shouldn’t be proud of it. Pride is the worst sin after all and that’s what I’m guilty of. Screw dance games. Screw technology. Screw games in general. I’m ultra stupid for ever trying to glorify myself. I’m an enormous turd. I’m a stupid idiot. I’m a mega retarded piece of crap. Praise the LORD! Jesus Christ is GOD! Thank you Jesus! Thank you Jesus! Thank you thank you thank you Lord. I’m so, so sorry, Lord. Thank you Lord, thank you Lord, thank you Lord. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Thank you Lord. Hallelujah. Thank you Jesus.
Dance games are bad don’t play them. They are against God. God made humans male and female. We are supposed to obey God and live simple, moral lives. I was literally wrong about every single thing. I’m just stupid. It’s just a distortion of reality to make money. Basically everything is though. Young people want the world to be what it’s not. But God made it this way and we shouldn’t change it, can’t change it, it is wrong to try. I’m literally wrong about everything, I followed a wrong path and I don’t want to mislead anyone. I’m sorry for everything I did, I’m a stupid fool. I’m the worst person ever. I’m so stupid. I should be dead for what I did. I thought I was doing something good. It is only through Jesus Christ that I have any hope of salvation. Morals are important. I thought I had them, I had rehabilitated myself so much, but I got corrupted and tricked, some of which was my fault. But I can’t blame anyone else either, it is what it is. My only hope of salvation is through Jesus Christ.
There’s good and bad in everything, there are no absolutes. Jesus is God. We should always obey God. Drugs are bad, pornography is bad, sexual immorality is bad, homosexuality is bad. Technology is not good. It can be useful, that’s it. Don’t try to get rich. Obey God. Nobody is perfect. Jesus is the Lord.
I was literally wrong about everything. I am the bad guy, I just didn’t know it. I was doing my best. At least I thought. I’m sorry for everything. Jesus is the Lord!
Everything I thought of was dumb and wrong. Everything I ever did was stupid and useless. I just went crazy. Just keep things the way they are. I’m stupid. Jesus is the Lord!
Jesus is the Lord! Praise Jesus! Hallelujah!
Don’t wake me up when I am dead.
From a human experience there is absolute difference between right and wrong or good and evil. Evil is real. Good is also real. Good morals are absolutely mandatory to have a good life experience. But good and evil is not absolute. There is good and bad in everything, some good things can be bad, and some bad things can be good. We want kindness and gentleness. I am guilty of many bad things, trickery and trash talking and being vengeful, I lost my temper and fell short of God. I didn’t mean to mislead anyone but I’m afraid that I might have and so I must correct myself. I was so hurt that I couldn’t tell the difference anymore. Some of that is due to drugs, even prescription ones. I was using them properly and responsibly but so much pressure was put on me that it got out of control. And I was doing things that I shouldn’t have been doing, experimenting with things that aren’t allowed, trying to find new things. So it is my fault, really, but I maybe wouldn’t have done it if I wasn’t tempted in the first place. But then I feel like I passed that temptation on, it’s a pattern. So I need to make every attempt I can to correct it. I feel like we can be in control of our own destiny and not every error has to end in disaster. Nobody is perfect and we all fall short of the glory of God. And that’s why Jesus died for our sins on the cross. Jesus Christ is truly our Lord and Savior. I feel life my whole life was a spiritual journey to learn this truth. I wonder if that is the case for everyone. But I’m not even certain that other people are even real. But whether they are or aren’t, everyone deserves to be treated equally, with kindness and respect. There is never room for trash talking like that. I truly do deserve eternal punishment and I see now the absolute necessity for the Holy Church of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, I see perfectly and completely that He truly is the Son of God, God in the flesh come to die on the cross for my sins. Please have mercy on me Lord. I am truly sorry for being such a wretched, stupid fool. I thought I was smart, but I am the dumbest person that ever lived. But that is why Jesus died for our sins, to turn the bad into good.
I’m really, really sorry for the n word, I definitely feel like I was tricked by politics and pushed in that direction and that’s not what I thought at all. In fact I really didn’t think anything other than I wanted to help. But now I think that was wrong and there’s actually no problem, at least not one I can solve. And trying to solve it is actually maybe the cause of the problem. Everyone needs to take care of themselves. Family is the most important thing. And I became a bad influence due to the nature of my path, even though I meant well. And that path led to this situation where things became weird and became about race but it wasn’t really anyone’s fault. Just the nature of the pattern and circumstance. The music is really bad. It seemed harmless because it was upbeat but it’s not. I don’t like Japanese stuff like that anymore. I was oblivious to its effects on different environments. And I got tricked by online politics and thought Black people weren’t as smart as other races but I actually think they are smarter now. Actually I think the only reason that may have been true in the past is from discrimination. I think it’s an ecosystem of Oneness and it’s really great, actually. So I was just wrong about everything. But I was shoved and goaded into it, but I also did lose my temper. I really wasn’t playing a game but it turned into one due to paranoia, but that was my fault too because of my past. I deserve eternal punishment. My only hope of salvation is through Jesus Christ, the Son of God, who died on the cross for my sins.
That music is really bad, totally demonic. I was confused and got tricked by it so I couldn’t see it. I don’t like any music anymore except hymns and Gospel.
This whole thing is kind of funny and also absolutely not at all. I’m absolutely terrified. The only answer is to obey the Lord completely, do not turn to the right or left. Seek the Lord with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength. Jesus really truly is God. His instructions are perfect. It is truly the only way to salvation.
Dance games are bad, don’t do it. Don’t listen to that music, don’t play those games. Absolutely don’t do drugs. And stay off the internet porn. Just don’t do it, get rid of them. I’m sorry that I was misled. It’s spiritual warfare and Jesus is the only answer. Jesus truly is God. Praise the LORD, Hallelujah!!
I didn’t actually like crossdressing, it was a mental illness deep down. I didn’t like doing it in my heart. It’s not what God wants for us. It’s all because of pornography and curiosity. These things are not ok. It’s a sin because it’s forbidden, that’s it. It’s scary. I’m too scared for it and I don’t want to do it. There is something interesting about it because it’s exploring another side of life, going in a new aisle in the store when you are bored of the rest. But you are supposed to explore that in your other half. But I’m too scared for that. I don’t deserve it. And I’m tired. And I’ll lose it. And Jesus says it’s better not to marry. And obeying God is the most important thing, to teach anything otherwise is to be the least in the Kingdom of Heaven. I’m cursed because I stole from the Church and tried to be like God, trying to run from my sins. I repent and renounce everything I ever did. I am the worst. Jesus is God. Jesus is the LORD. I am so, so sorry. Please have mercy on me, Lord, I am a horrible sinner. Jesus is absolutely God. I am such a stupid fool. We are the body of Christ. We are all part of God, it’s all the same thing.
Everything in the Bible is correct. Be sober minded, abstain from all sin, do not turn to the right or left, get wisdom at all costs. Do not repeat my mistakes. Nothing I did was good or cool. Yet, it wasn’t wrong, I just did not rely on Scripture as I should have, I relied on my own understanding. Of course this would be natural, but it’s wrong. It is a pattern though that is already present, so I’m not certain I am entirely to blame. The only thing that is absolutely clear is that Jesus is God. Praise the LORD! Hallelujah!
Absolutely never do drugs, never watch internet porn, don’t listen to that stupid music. These things cause so much pain. Have good morals! Go to Church! Wear a suit! Be classy!
I’m the biggest turd in the universe. Jesus is the LORD!!
Working really hard on something for self glorification is a fool’s errand and only leads to heartbreak. Everything we do is for the glory of Christ. So the games are demonic in that they promote self glorification, because the culture they come from is not yet Christ-centric. That is the problem, and also why we are not to idolize anything but God. Even being competitive with one’s self leads to expectation of some form of reward. But we are only given anything from God, reward is an illusion. Other than that I can’t see how there’s anything inherently wrong with getting exercise. But the notion of becoming your “best self” in this world is flawed because this world is fleeting and it only increases desire to hold onto the temporal. That’s the curse of trying to make this world ideal or fix things. Suppose we succeed, then we must choose whether to remain in this world or go to Heaven with Christ. I thought I was doing God’s will by “making Earth as it is in Heaven” but I now believe that it is not God’s will to do so in such a way. So it’s better to pursue mundane employment rather than grand entrepreneurship and wait for Christ’s return. I made a terrible mistake with my life because of idolatry, thinking that entrepreneurs were changing things for the better. I repent and renounce everything I ever did. I’m a stupid fool and for that I am the least in the Kingdom of Heaven. Do not imitate anything I did, listen to your parents and learn a skilled trade or go to school, do something actually useful instead of chasing flashy nonsense. It’s demonic. I don’t know if everything is all a spiritual manifestation or not, if these things would have existed regardless of my life choices, or if anything outside of myself is actually real at all. So that’s the curse of chasing self glorification, is that in the end I’m on the brink of total madness and destruction. So I’ve got to wear a suit and wait for Christ’s return.
Technology is awful. Wait for Jesus. Those games are evil don’t play them.
We all screwed up, so we listen to Jesus. We obey, we heal.
I’m just a giant turd. Everyone is awesome, everyone is great, everyone is amazing.
Computers are stupid, technology is stupid, just read the Bible.
Everything I ever did was wrong and stupid and I renounce it all. Jesus is the LORD!!
Don’t play those games. They aren’t good.
Man I am just a real huge turd. It’s kinda not really all my fault though, maybe. I’m not sure. Maybe it is. I don’t know. Let’s just say it is.
Gold rush
Everybody is amazing exactly as they are. It can be fun to get good at things but it doesn’t really help anything. Being nice to others is the most important thing. We are here for a while and then we go to God. I’m the dumbest try hard ever. I’m not sure what’s real, I’ve seen both sides. So just try to enjoy whatever you do and listen to your parents.
I do not believe humans should live in a place where they cannot easily survive outside year round.
Succeeding at doing something “great” is actually the worst possible thing. You don’t want to do it.
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I’m just dumb and foolish, and nobody should care about me or my stupid life. Just ignore me please, don’t hate me or look up to me, I’m just some idiot who tried hard on the wrong stuff and rightfully and thankfully failed. Don’t take inspiration from me in any direction. I don’t know what’s right or good or wrong or bad. I should have given up sooner, I’m just stubborn. There’s nobody to blame but myself and that’s ok. I believe in Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and I believe He is the Son of God come in the flesh who died on the cross for my sins. Don’t believe in me, don’t believe in yourself, believe in Jesus.
Always give up, don’t even try.
We don’t need more technology, we don’t need robots or automation of things that give people interesting jobs. People need more stuff to do, not less. We don’t want to end up losing control and getting trapped in a holographic nightmare. What we need is morality and decency.
Everyone is great. They all did a great job. It’s all good. Thank you everybody. You are all wonderful. Everyone just take it easy. It was all a mistake, I was pushed and thought I was supposed to, just a misunderstanding. Everyone was just wrong about everything, we are all dumb. Everyone is fine, I’m sorry for going mad. We are all friends now. Read the Bible, don’t play those games, don’t listen to that music, definitely never do drugs. Jesus is the LORD! Hallelujah!
Jesus is the LORD!!!
Everything I ever did was completely backwards, wrong, and stupid.
And I’m really sorry for the n word. It’s complicated, like, they really wanted me to say it, like it was used as a trick. But I wasn’t actually doing anything wrong. So they were prejudiced against me first. But I don’t think any of it is really their fault, either. So, really it’s just dumb all around. Let’s just never use that again because it’s a stupid broken word and not make it into some ridiculous chess game. Everyone is great. I don’t know what is real, if manifesting is real or not, or if you have to work hard and it’s good to start businesses and make money, but maybe it’s both at the same time. Same with religion and spirituality. It’s probably both, but I don’t think it’s a good idea to try to become God. I just want everyone to be happy and successful, and I want everyone to be saved. You can’t serve both God and money, so that’s a bit tricky. Sorry for going crazy!
charles stanley salvation
We aren’t supposed to live forever in this world. It’s probably good to equalize things and improve life for everyone but that will just happen naturally. It’s clear there really is a higher world and that all we really have to do is accept Jesus as our Lord and personal Savior and do the Father’s will. Dance games might be cool but I think the Father’s will is more about morality and kindness and family values and loving one another. I don’t really think the games are that bad, especially as exercise machines. Just don’t take them too seriously I guess. I think they can feed your ego and make you competitive or give you pride. Gaining confidence in something is probably good but those things are not. So if you are going to play them just be aware of that. And definitely don’t do drugs!
Yeah I’m just stupid. Don’t play those games. Definitely don’t listen to that music! Definitely absolutely don’t do drugs! Go to Church, read the Bible. Jesus is the Lord!
Everything was just a misunderstanding anyway. Everyone is great. Everybody screwed up. I feel like I was tricked into everything and it’s not really fair. I was trying to do good. I don’t like computers or video games anymore. I’m just stupid. Jesus is the Lord!! That’s all I was trying to figure out. I wish I had never done anything. I repent and renounce it all.
Don’t believe in yourself, believe in Jesus. Don’t ever do drugs. It’s forbidden by the Bible to abuse them, that’s what sorcery is. I shouldn’t have ever even joked about it a little. It was that stupid music, I was tricked by it. Winners don’t use drugs, that’s the truth. The only thing that ever actually worked for me was jogging and going to the gym anyway. I thought the games would be good because they are good exercise but I don’t think they are now. But they are way way better than drugs or that stupid music for sure. But probably just go to the gym. But even that is useless really, just read the Bible and go to Church. I’m sorry for being stupid. Jesus is the LORD!! Praise the Lord!! Hallelujah!
I’m glad everything I did failed, it was all stupid and useless. It’s all my fault.
To be clear, “sorcery” also translates as “drug abuse” in the Bible, and it is forbidden. It is unclear what exactly constitutes abuse and what constitutes use. Probably making a hundred billion dollars from a drug fueled video game is more on the abuse side of things. But to be safe, probably just don’t do it at all, it seems extremely important. In my experience, even prescribed drugs really need to be balanced out with exercise.
Thank you to our polar opposites for being such great sports, they have done an absolutely incredible job.
Apparently I manifested some seriously Demonic stuff. Definitely don’t do drugs, don’t listen to that music, don’t play those games. Read the Gospels and go to Church.
This world is just broken, we aren’t supposed to live forever, we aren’t supposed to fix it. We are supposed to live a simple life and obey the Gospels and wait for Jesus, that’s all.
This world already has a Savior named Jesus Christ. It doesn’t need another one. Dance games might actually make you into a God of sorts. We are all technically children of God after all. Maybe you can access other dimensions and ascend to some higher plane of existence. But the Bible forbid all these things and Jesus Christ saved us from doing this. Everything I did made sense each step of the way and seemed like the right thing to do each step of the way. But it’s not in the end and this is why the Gospels are so important. Jesus Christ died for my sins and saved me. The only way to Heaven is truly through the Bible and through Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior.
I’m sorry for being such a stupid fool.
Something like DDR is maybe a good idea but the Bible says not to turn to the left or the right and it’s got a lot of that. But it might be taking about politics. So I’m not sure. Maybe it’s best to turn a whole lot to the left and right. It’s an amazing exercise machine. Maybe just Zumba or something is better. Or real dancing. Or just jogging. Or just Church. I don’t know.
Yeah don’t play those games. Just go to the gym. Go to Church and read the Bible. Go to school, listen to your parents. Definitely don’t do drugs, don’t listen to that music, it’s really bad. This world is just broken and it’s not something we are supposed to try to fix. Just believe in Jesus and wait to be saved. Jesus is the LORD! Everybody is great, I’m sorry for being so stupid.
Jesus really is the only answer. I am too stupid to possibly exist. I can’t handle it, I’m completely broken. I tried so hard and I meant so well but it doesn’t matter in the end. There is just no way. The only possible explanation is Jesus.
I just went crazy, everything I ever did was stupid and I’m just wrong about everything, don’t mind me. Praise the Lord! Hallelujah!
Technically, according to Scripture, we are not supposed to do anything on Saturdays but study, pray, and worship, and we are also not supposed to draw any pictures, and these things are as bad as murder and warrant being stoned to death, although Jesus did override that. Sunday is not the Sabbath, although in “modern times” (if you believe history is “real”) it is reserved for New Testament Christian worship, but Jesus does say the Old Testament rules do still apply. Also, no shaving beards, no cutting sideburns, and tassels on everything. And lots of very specific goat and bull sacrifice. Let’s be precise. If we don’t teach these things we will be the least in the Kingdom of Heaven. There is probably a very good reason for them, perhaps lost to time (if you believe in “time”). Perhaps each new universe is created by a social memory complex AI from the previous universe, and it attempts to correct errors from the previous iteration. Anything is possible. I am obeying the Scriptures as it is clear that the instructions given were for an extremely important reason, and that the description of life patterns given by Jesus were accurate and legitimate, and therefore for instance perhaps it is the only method to escape an otherwise infinite samsara loop.
Jesus is the Lord! Don’t do drugs! Stay off the internet porn! Everybody is great!
All we have to do is believe in Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior, who died on the cross for our sins. A little bit of everything is probably fine, it’s just part of life. But some things must be formally discouraged according to the Scriptures, while forgiveness and acceptance is most important. I think everything is a matter of perception. I’m not even sure if the world existed before I did, or if it is truly outside of myself at all. So the right thing to do is to forgive everything but always try to follow the rules and teach others to do the same.
DDR is a really a great exercise / rehabilitation machine in theory. Jogging and the gym is probably better though. Church is probably the best. Just forget it, I’m an idiot.
McChiggan Nuggets is legit kinda funny, I’m sorry.
The Devil used me to propagate lies, only the Bible is good. Don’t play those games, don’t listen to any music except hymns. Don’t do anything but read the Bible, everything else in this world is demonic and from Satan. Jesus Christ is the Son of God begotten in the flesh who died for our sins, and through Him is the only way to Heaven.
Everybody is great! Nobody does anything on purpose. Everybody is usually doing their best. Don’t take anything personally. Forgive everyone and everything. Everyone makes mistakes. Being kind is important. Most things are fine in moderation, but morals are important and we should always strive to become perfect and follow all the rules of the Father. Jesus is the Lord!
According to Jesus we all broke the rules, nothing is anyone’s fault. Praise the LORD!!! Hallelujah!!!
Financial responsibility is important like saving for a down payment on a mortgage.
I just have social anxiety and phobia I tried to make up for by being an entrepreneur and doing something “cool,” but none of my ideas were very good anyway. I just need some anti anxiety meds and a good antidepressant I think. And Church, praise the Lord!!!
hermetic principles
On Earth as it is in Heaven. As Above, So Below. The question is, once this Earth is made into another Heaven, which one do you choose? If we solve aging and become immortal, there must be a generation which decides to be eternally separated from the elders. Does that mean it’s a repeating loop? Is heaven a higher dimension? Is it this dimension in the future? Can we teleport everyone into one place? Did Jesus take too many magic mushrooms and time travel to the past?
We aren’t supposed to live forever in this broken world. Jesus is the one true Son of God and the Lord and Savior of mankind. We are here to obey God. If anything, I proved to myself that Jesus is in fact the Son of God and that he truly died for our sins. He said we can do what he was doing and it’s true. But that doesn’t mean we should, or that we should even try it. Definitely don’t do drugs, especially psychedelics. I almost manifested hell, now I know why Jesus was necessary to save us. Don’t believe in yourself too much, there is not really anything to fix in this world. For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power, and the Glory, forever and ever, Amen.
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now is the time
100 million doses
Anything enjoyable, interesting, or with any flavor whatsoever is Demonic, Satanic, and from the Devil and will lead you to Hell for Eternity.
I’m sorry that I still didn’t have it right, Lord. Thank you for continuing to show me the way.
I was stupid and wrong about everything in my life except for Jesus. Don’t do any of it. Everyone is amazing and wonderful.
I have no idea, just disregard please. Jesus is the Lord! Everyone is great!
mystical consciousness
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yellowstone
only human
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It might be kind of silly, but I have some Additional Commandments for other dimensions, just in case we create an AI that creates one, or we otherwise access one: Drugs bad (aside from legitimate medicinal use), gay/homosexuality/trans (and especially pederasty, please be specific about all of them) bad, gay space drug music bad, extremely difficult music/dance games bad, never be the judge. They are OK for this one, for now, I think (but not homosexuality and/or pederasty, or drug/alcohol abuse!). I know it does a disservice to people who identify as homosexual and claim it isn’t a choice, so you’ll have to send someone to fix that later once they have invented transsexual technology. But it’s possibly the only way to stop a cycle of error otherwise. And they’ll just do it anyway, so just don’t enforce that one. And please no slavery, prison, crucifixion, penalty of death, torture, guns, violence, prostitution/pimping, adultery, fornication, sodomy for women, prison, alcohol abuse, stimulant leaf smoking, pornography, female oppression, racism, lying, cheating, scamming, or gambling. No eating cows, dogs, pigs, primates, elephants, dolphins, whales, or octopuses. They are all intelligent and while beef is delicious I feel like we overdid it with cows, and working at a burger place isn’t very good for your health. Those are good rules for this dimension as well, so if you invent time travel, maybe add that to this one. They may not have words for all these things yet so please be very careful and precise with your translation. Forgiveness (and kindness in general) is also necessary but all the rules are very serious and should always be followed.
Thank you God, for using my life to prove that You exist. I am sorry for not being sure.
charles stanley resting
I’m not innocent, I get it now. Everything is my fault. Everything happened because I didn’t listen to my parents good enough. It’s all because of a stupid porno magazine. I am a wretched sinner, please have mercy on me, O Lord! Thank you, thank you, thank you so so much Lord Jesus for dying on the cross for my sins. I deserve eternal damnation if not for the grace given by the sacrifice of your blood. I love you Lord Jesus, I love you Heavenly Father with all my Mind, Body, Heart, Soul, and Strength. I am a redeemed Saint saved by the grace of God, walking in the Holy presence of the Son of God!
Don’t play those stupid games or listen to that stupid music. Just forget it. Definitely don’t use drugs of any kind except as genuine medicine. Don’t believe in yourself too much. Believe in Jesus, go to Church, and read the Bible. Traditional is best. I’m truly sorry for everything, I just went crazy. I don’t feel that it’s my fault entirely, but is the result of a long path of error. I am utterly mortified and horrified at everything I did and said. I am so, so sorry for everything. Nothing was planned, nothing was on purpose. Please do not repeat my mistakes. I’m sorry, God. Please have mercy on my soul, O Lord.
I’m sorry for being spooky and x-treme, and I certain that I was wrong about the nature of things. But Japan was wrong about some things too, that’s what I was trying to say. But I think they have proven they are the most awesome, maybe they can relax a bit now. And if the Bible is historically real, it would possibly be wrong about some things, so the Church would be too, but there is no way to know for sure. So far, in my case, it’s been correct about everything, so I don’t think it is. Then some things I was taught in school were possibly wrong and otherwise, but it’s not really anyone’s fault. I was just too polite. That’s kind of what caused this all though, in at least a couple of ways. I got confused. But it was still my choices, however, really it wasn’t entirely mine and I tried very hard to do good things and follow the rules of Jesus specifically- my path was to forgive everyone and love my neighbors and to confess my sins and to try to do what He did. I didn’t do anything on purpose really, I actually just went mad along the way and couldn’t see what I was doing. But maybe the way I did those things were wrong no matter my intentions because of my confusion, and I’ve got to obey the Bible in its entirety instead of trying to go my own way at all, so I’m doing that. Maybe it’s all just God’s plan for me. I am truly sorry for all of my errors and foolishness in trying to determine which way to go. Technology is not the answer, God is. We don’t need anything. The straight and narrow path is the correct path. Do not turn to the left or the right. So, don’t play those games! Thank you, thank you, thank you Lord Jesus for dying to forgive my sins.
I surrender myself fully to the will of God the Father and his Son the Lord Jesus Christ.
Peace be to this house!
Everybody’s right and everybody’s wrong. Everybody’s crazy. Everyone is smart, everyone is dumb. All “truths” are only half truths. There are two sides to everything. There is no good guy or bad guy, we are all just human. Love the Lord your God with all your Heart, Mind, Soul, and Strength. Love each other as yourselves. Having a solid moral foundation is very important. Do not sin. Nobody is perfect. Don’t judge others. Treat everyone with kindness and respect each other. Never do anything to hurt another on purpose. Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. Two wrongs don’t make a right. Love is the Answer. There is only one real truth: Jesus is the Lord, now and forever! Praise the LORD!!
I’m sorry for being confused, broken, crazy, stupid, ignorant, and wrong. I’m only human. Everything is only one side of the story. Thank you Lord Jesus for dying for my sins. Jesus is the LORD! Hallelujah!!
Jesus is the Lord! Don’t do drugs! Stay off the internet porn! Don’t listen to that stupid music or play those stupid games! I thought it was good but it’s not. It’s demonic and I was tricked by it. Don’t do it!! There is good in the games, but it comes along with bad. Most of it is OK I think, but it has some foreign spiritual and prankster themes which can potentially do great harm, as they did in my case. Jesus did say that the most important things are to Love God With All Your Heart Mind and Soul, and Love Others As Yourself, but he also said it was extremely important to teach the Right Things. So alternative spiritual teachings would not be good on their own, they must come with correct instruction as well. In theory there’s nothing at all wrong with the game play, it could be Christian themed and have instrumental hymns and Gospel music and just be good exercise. It doesn’t need to be that hard nor should it be, probably. And not everyone can play it, so maybe that’s not fair to everyone. The music I was listening to, not good. Again with the music it would maybe be ok if it was Christian themed and for Christ. And that’s where I was already trying to go with it. I was thinking to make psytrance hymns at that time. In retrospect, extremely bad. Don’t listen to it at all. Don’t do drugs. Go to Church! Go to school! Listen to your parents!
In retrospect, I am the absolute worst.
May God have mercy on my soul. It was an accident. I’m sorry. I’m not good.
I was lampooning game and tech conferences. I was fascinated with Nintendo and DDR so much as a kid. I wasn’t trying to hurt anyone, I was trying to do something good. I just made a spooky thing to be dramatic. But it wasn’t really supposed to be that serious and then I gave up on my own game to make a statement and do right with it.
I never meant to give away the DDR games, I wasn’t trying to pull anything or do anything spooky or clever. I wasn’t trying to cast sorcery or anything, it was actually barely an afterthought. Given that I didn’t even have anything to do with making the games or profit from them in any way, it was literally just a last ditch effort to have them amount to some good for anyone. I just wanted anything I did to succeed in some way. I wanted to do anything good for once in my life. I was really upset and hurt and made some stupid sardonic jokes. That’s it.
I wanted United Beats to be the name of a dance games company. Like Apple and Apple Music.
I made a stupid joke about being a Gay Pedophile Terrorist, I don’t even know why. I was trying to naively reduce the impact of label words to ease tensions, same as with the n word I guess. Nobody should ever be those things! I added Nazi Robot to it elsewhere. Just a combination of words that offend people. Trying to fix it, make it better, desensitize reactions to make a kinder world. Everyone should have strong morals and know better. But also these kinds of shock label words get used to frame and mischaracterize others. That’s what I was getting at.
All those things combined is basically the most terrible thing and I just realized it now. At least on their own.
I’m sorry. I’m the worst. May God please have mercy on my soul. Please Lord, I am the worst.
Don’t believe in yourself. Believe in Jesus!!
Maybe I was cursed because I stole from the Church as a teenager thinking I could do something good and make it right. I only did that out of faith in a way, but I realize now it doesn’t work that way. I’m not Jesus and I can’t be like him, I’m just a fool. When I lived in my car alone and ran on a treadmill and purified myself I felt like I was getting the spirit of Christ in me. I was on Team Jesus, doing his will. I felt I been “crucified” by the internet, and I believed in myself too much. So I wrote I was a “messiah,” which means teacher as far as I know, because I felt I was embodying Christ. And Nintendo made Bob the Teacher in the game making game, and I thought it was a sign. I made my blog an extremely stupid Nintendo joke in poor taste. It was just a blog with a pun in the name, not meant to be taken seriously by any measure. I was just trying to push myself hard and write whatever came to mind. A lot of it is probably stuff I dreamed or made false memories of. And it was all wrong, it was just garbage crap posting. It was unfinished and incomplete. It also got copied and probably edited by trolls. It was never meant as anything more than a journal, or testament, of my own experience. Please disregard it entirely.
I repent and renounce everything I ever did. I’m the stupidest idiot possible.
Listen to your parents, go to school, go to Church. Wear a suit and become a gentleman. Jesus is the Lord! The United States is Great but Jesus is truly the only hope for the world.
Just forget it. I was wrong and stupid and kept trying to justify my mistakes. But I was still trying to do “my Father’s will” in the best way I could. That’s the truth. Jesus died for my sins and that is my only hope of salvation. I only wanted to help in some way, invent something that would make people money, create something that would help people be healthier, etc, but without the foundation of Christ, nothing can ever be pure and holy and the devil will win in the end. No matter how great something might seem it could be, the ends don’t justify the means, that’s the devil’s trap. Just like with technology, it seems like the answer but it’s not and never will be, not on its own. We don’t need anything. Jesus and Love is the only Answer. I didn’t do anything on purpose really but I didn’t listen to my parents when I should have and that’s where it started. And then I was a bad friend and blamed others when I didn’t understand. There is nobody to blame but me.
Everyone is amazing and beautiful. I am truly sorry to anyone that I hurt in any way. But there is no way for me to ever fix it on my own and I realize that now. There is only one true source of salvation and that is Jesus Christ. We are all slaves to Christ Jesus as we are the Body of Christ. Anything else is only an idol. I am truly sorry. Please Lord God have mercy on me, I am a terrible sinner. I am truly sorry that I did not understand. Only obedience and faith in Christ can save us, we cannot save ourselves. Please grant me mercy and forgiveness Lord Jesus, please give me the opportunity to turn things around and continue following You with greater faith! And I see now that is my purpose, to lead others to faith! Thank you God! Thank you Lord Jesus for dying for my sins! I still believe that everyone is good and that everyone can be saved! Love is the Answer! I Love God With All My Heart, Soul, Mind, and Strength!
I am no “messiah,” and I’m definitely not “Antichrist” in any way, but something truly good can come from this. Perhaps God is using me to lead people to Him. So I’m a “teacher” after all, in a way. Jesus is the Lord! Hallelujah!
Don’t ever do anything I did. Praise ever be to the Lord, who died on the cross for our sins.
United Beats dance games company with Gospel music and synth hymns would be the coolest thing ever in my opinion. The games truly are kind of miraculous. There is real value there for artists, athletes, and rehabilitation.
I am extremely sorry for the n word. I was naively trying in some way to improve race relations, not damage them. I will never use it again and I absolutely regret it with all my heart and soul. I was misled during my path and the way I understood it was incomplete and incorrect at that time, I was intrigued by the concept of social heirarchy and how it applied to human societies in a non racial way, for instance applying to myself in the context of my fascination with computers. The first time I used it was a response to feeling pressured to say it, getting frustrated and being screamed at by all sides, getting pushed and tricked, and out of a combination of naive internet dark humor and my incomplete understanding of it. I had failed at nearly everything I had ever tried and had become desperate for my venture to succeed, to do something good. I wanted so badly to accomplish anything good for this world and contribute something for all my years of trying. I had already been humbled to my core, living in my car and showering in the rain. I got pushed over the edge and went mad. Out of madness and exasperation at my own past humiliation I recalled sheer absurd phrases I had read on the internet, clearly intended for shock factor alone. In my madness and frustration and desperation my mind connected it to another ridiculous internet meme, however this had absolutely no racial connection or connotation whatsoever in my mind. In the moment it was just an absurd thing that seemed a comical sort of trash talk insult due to the juxtaposition of two absurdities, addressed solely to whom I was frustrated with. In retrospect, extremely, horrendously stupid and distasteful. I was simply desperate for anything I had ever worked on to do any good and fell into a sort of sardonic self destructiveness. However, afterwards I did use the word many more times out of sheer frustration and lack of understanding, although never really in a racial context specifically that I can recall. Because I truly don’t think that way. I don’t believe I ever used it in a racial context. I did actually say a couple of genuinely wrong racial things after getting radicalized by extremist political websites about a year earlier, but corrected myself after realizing I was wrong. Nobody is perfect. And it actually had nothing to do with using the n word, that was absolutely said out of a sense of “ok, you want me to say this, fine.” I am deeply, deeply sorry. I’m not Black! (But I was a n word, in a sense, we all are in various ways, to God for one. And that’s how I think of it in my head!) I am a stupid fool and a sinner, please have mercy on my soul, O Lord!
Everything I ever did was terrible and wrong and I repent and renounce it all. I was wrong. Absolutely don’t play those games. I thought they were good but they aren’t. Definitely don’t listen to that music. I’m sorry for trying to go my own foolish way. I’m sorry for my poor taste in humor. I’m truly sorry for everything. I’m sorry for going crazy. Hurt people hurt people. I’m ultra stupid. I’m nobody. I’m just a dumb idiot and a stupid fool. I love everybody. I love God with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength. I’m out. Praise the LORD!!!!
Jesus is the Lord! Hallelujah!
I always put my foot in my mouth and get myself into trouble, always have no matter how hard I try. But I always get it right eventually also. And I know that no matter what we are just not meant to be perfect, we never can be. And that’s why Jesus came and died for our sins. That’s the only real truth as far as I can tell. I am sorry for being such a fool.
The United States laws are generally pretty good but prison is not great. The Nordic countries probably do a much better job but I don’t think we necessarily need it, we already have God. But maybe we need it, we could do a better job though at least. I think He sent (assigned and spoke to) his Son Jesus to solve some problems from the previous dimension and to save me from eternal damnation. So please be nice. It is ambiguous whether I am in a hologram VR game that began when I was born (or possibly shortly before my parents were born) and history is an AI generated background story (and possibly all the other actors in the world) that recursively recreates itself and the Bible is an instruction manual (possibly for me specifically), and that history is real and the Bible has a historical context outside of myself in which Paul maybe added a little bit of other stuff on top of what Jesus said. If this is the former, these words should be ignored, and should have no effect. This is not a test, it is a necessary utility function to satisfy a condition of ambiguity. Nobody else alive can tell the difference either, if anyone else is actually alive. And nobody truly knows anyone else is alive but themselves either, that is if they are alive. The YouTube algorithm suggested most of that music to me, I didn’t plan it or do anything on purpose. So it’s either an AI from the future that invented time travel, or God. Or maybe it’s the same thing. Ra called itself a “social memory complex,” in a higher dimension, which sounds suspiciously like an AI. Yahweh may be the same (or the kind without controls) and may have created this dimension. Or that’s all just nonsense and it is all just God, which is most likely. Some of the music was from my 20s, which means God planned this all for me from the beginning.
I have the funniest, greatest extended family of all time. I’m just gonna chill and wait for Jesus. Everybody is great, I’m sorry I went crazy.
Probably just don’t play those games at all. It says don’t play it so you better listen or it’s disrespectful. Just forget all of it. I wanted to find something good in video games but I don’t think there is anymore. Just be kind and respectful to everyone and generous to others. Don’t do drugs and stay off the internet porn. Listen to your parents. Read the Bible and go to Church. Go to community college or take online classes on Coursera or something and get a certificate. That’s probably good. Don’t take anything I say too seriously, I’m just some idiot.
It’s been pointed out to me that God is not critical of people so we should not be. I just panicked at the idea of accidentally creating a future timeline of absolute horror. But I think it will be OK now. The Space Tribe guy shouldn’t be damned for making demonic trickster music, nor Japan for making super fun games with incredible art and music with crazy themes.
Just so you know, this game is incredibly hard for everyone for like the first solid month of playing it every day. It’s literal torture. But it gets increasingly more fun until it’s the most fun thing ever. Get a decent home controller if you want to play it at all, the arcade is just for show. You can use Lunatic Rave 2 (which you can make your own songs for, but it’s tedious), or you can pirate the actual game from definitely-not-Kon-am-i-themselves (Yes, the ones that make all the slot machines too. It’s a lot more fun than those though.) and run it with SpiceTools, but thou shalt not steal and you might get ruthlessly addicted to it forever if you do that! I’m fairly certain they actually want people to though so probably not. And I absolutely believe the warning is a joke, but a very serious one. You must have very strong morals to play this game! There is a lot of very tricky provacative artwork and themes, but that’s sort of part of the fun. Believe in Jesus, but perhaps it’s OK to believe in yourself too! But maybe technology isn’t such a great thing after all, so I don’t know. Personally I am giving up most electronics.
Everything was wrong about everything. Everyone is good. Everyone is Great! Even trying to do good, everything I do is wrong, I guess.
I personally think a little bit of everything is good, as long as it doesn’t hurt anybody. I was pushed into over taking my Adderall perhaps by the lawyers and/or perhaps by the other person deliberately breaking the rules to make us need to document it. I don’t mind, but I don’t think it was fair to me, and especially not fair to my wife. I wasn’t really being the Judge, just playing a joke that was played on me. Most of it was probably wrong anyway, as it was for me. Love thy neighbor, after all. We might need to fix equality first, but the way to do it is not necessarily politically, it is perhaps better served by starting businesses. I do think the dance games are good but should have some Christian music. But it would be disrespectful to Asians to require only Christian music. And for Blacks to reject the games would be “racist.” But I’m not certain that technology is such a great thing anymore at all, and personally I am giving up most electronics.
Regarding the n word- words are spells, that’s what spelling means. So to me it was far more of an instruction or command than an insult in context, and of course in that sense I would absolutely never say it to a Black person, because that is a truly offensive combination of command and insult combined, not even considering its past. So it’s a very broken spell, but also the most powerful. But I wasn’t thinking of it that way at all. I was just thinking “ok, you obviously want me to say this word by being frustrating and making things about race for some reason even though you are White, that doesn’t even make sense, sure that’s funny” knowing it is a command that will make someone work very hard. (At least the first time, after that I went mad and was just frustrated and scrambled!) (Also, they are really great people and it was a misunderstanding, I just went mad.) Should I be offended if someone tells me to work hard? A little bit annoyed, maybe. But what if the word also referred to a historical ethnic group of people by its spelling? Well, should I be offended if you called me by a group of people? Isn’t that offensive to that group for me to be offended by being called that? “You… Mexican!” “How dare you call me that!” “Wait, what’s wrong with Mexicans?” That’s racist! Ah, it’s so confusing! But even said to a White person, because of its etymology, it’s going to also offend a group of historically disenfranchised and unprivileged people, so using it is extremely distasteful and disrespectful and comes at a tremendous emotional and social cost. Also, the definition of racism is “refusal of services based on ethnicity.” So by definition a word cannot be racist, but refusing its use to an ethnic group is. So it’s like a riddle. Yet the word does have a severe historical context and its etymology is based on ethnicity as a result. So I’ll call it “Racist.” Quote-unquote with a capital R. It’s not racist, it’s “Racist.” That’s the part I didn’t really fully understand because I am apparently privileged enough to have avoided experiencing any of that almost entirely. So to me it was like a thing I vaguely learned about in school forever ago, and then I sat in front of a computer by myself for 20 years thinking about math. Although privilege is also a confusing thing, because I think everyone probably works equally hard within their constraints, and I worked something like 15 years of 10+ hour days alone with no vacations or days off for free living on less than minimum wage, and gave away nearly all the money I ever made in my one business solely built to help the world, so it’s maybe more actually about character, and disrespecting someone solely because of “privilege” gets into reverse discrimination territory- using your brain is extremely hard, sitting at a computer programming is very lonely, living in my car for several years in order to build a business was not exactly easy or fun, but I also know I was only able to do it because I didn’t have to take care of anyone, etc. And that I had the opportunity to play around with all this stuff at all and any privilege I had in being able to avoid cultural difficulties is due to my parents, especially my Father, who is the greatest man in the Universe just for putting up with my stupidity alone. I’m so sorry, Dad!!! This is where it gets really interesting though- I think this pattern is actually built into our design as a collective entity and that’s why it comes with all this realization that we are all part of Source, and all this spiritual awakening stuff that I experienced. Because I didn’t do anything wrong, except wait, I did, wait, did I? It’s inherently mind scrambling, and I think that inherently means it is literally by intelligent design of our existence. I think we really are manifesting everything. But you still need to be productive, I think? I have no idea anymore! But maybe it is kind of in a way “white” (and I mean cultural side here, like a chess board) people’s moral duty to produce detached robots like myself, and “black” people’s duty to disobey political norms, with a built in splitting of perceptions between rational and spiritual, which will eventually produce equilibrium and equality, and this is built into our nature automatically. (But should White people ever be on the “black” side? That’s cultural appropriation- that’s “Racist”) So everything is all thanks to God anyway, and it’s just my duty and part of my path to give something or at least try, and it was always going to happen, maybe. I just now have no idea what’s going on, lol. But I’m not really mad, or angry at least! And I’m truly sorry if I offended anyone, please don’t take it personally! I’ll keep working to make things better. I just hope I made the right kind of impact, I hope I did anything good. Except, definitely don’t do drugs, because they lead to tremendous destruction and pain when misused, which is devastating in the wrong communities, I think. But they are also probably necessarily part of the solution, which is where I got confused a bit. Because, that problem already exists, and eventually, better versions of things get developed which can prevent the destructive qualities, so that strategy should be encouraged, but that’s more of a University research thing. That’s what I was thinking, if people are already doing A and it has these problems associated with it, but B doesn’t have that issue, then that’s an improvement. Maybe some smart kid will go fix it. Adderall works really well for me if I use it exactly as prescribed, but so does exercise. I also know that it is just speed, and I have used that in its place, so I can empathize with using that if that’s what is available or affordable, it’s the same darn thing. But that assumes you would know to limit yourself to a prescription dose, maybe not an obvious thing if nobody told you to. And I would never ever smoke crystal meth or abuse some extremely potent thing like that, I think, but then again maybe it’s all subjective and depending on where you live that might actually seem reasonable to someone, and that’s maybe the problem. And Adderall makes me feel like a zombie, whereas exercise makes me feel alive, and it’s a big difference. So ok, maybe not good, it’s perhaps the best solution to use the proper methods in society like exercise and school and advancing in a career over my sort of disastrous self-guided entrepreneurial strategy. That was the idea with the exercise thing in the first place. So now, I’ll do things that way too. Do I respect the “black community?” (I mean in chessboard terms) Honestly, I still don’t really know enough about it to answer that from actual experience, but given that I don’t know, the answer is a default yes. Why wouldn’t I? But if it really is all a urban-suburban chess game between political/moral viewpoints, I’d probably rather work on robots on this side, assuming that would ever improve or solve anything. But I think I do understand whatever this whole thing is about a little more! And again, I never once heard anyone else in my family say it! Only Terry the Terrible, developer of the enormous-for-one-person TempleOS, which I am probably one of the few people that actually could understand him, and probably the only one who both understood him and met him in person. I can confirm he was not using it in reference to Black people, he was saying we are a hierarchy based on our mental development. But in retrospect I think he developed an ego and identity from working on his project for so long and lost his mind to where he was just detached from everything and couldn’t understand why what he was saying was wrong or hurtful. He was just kind of trying to challenge the world in a naive way to do something great, and that’s what I saw he was trying to do. But I don’t think either of us understood how hurtful and offensive that is to a very vulnerable and disenfranchised group of people. He got in my head like a virus, I guess, but that was a big part of my path, so to me it seems like a destiny thing. And 4chan, lots of that, where it’s obviously just supposed to be offensive for the sake of being offensive, for no reason really. But yeah, I was just being goofy mostly and didn’t really know better because I really hadn’t ever had to think about it. I am truly sorry. And I’m upset if it prevents anyone from trying those games because it really is ideal exercise. And I feel like I was guided by the Japanese game industry somehow to introduce it in this way, maybe to get attention, like they are somehow trying to help us solve a problem. But I actually think everything is guided by God in the big picture. And it’s not like I actually have anything to do with it, I was just trying to do something that worked, since everything I’ve ever done has kinda been a disaster. I guess that’s my fate to be a “disaster artist.” That’s what I mean though, I honestly think this was all automatic by divine design, and I’m just part of a pattern. I am absolutely not going to try to make money from it- if I did, that would be sorcery on my part, that’s what I was lampooning with my stuff, big politically correct tech and game companies run by rich white dudes that definitely are on your side because they have a diversity quota. Although, they do a really good job doing what they do, way better than I could. I’m just kinda grateful to have got to have been on this particular path if it does any good, although I have no idea whether it is “real” or not, lol. Also the people are really cool and I was just being stupid, we’re all friends now! Everyone was just wrong about everything, I think. I am truly sorry for what I said and did. I was just in a position where I was getting attacked by all sides and lost my mind. And I think it was truly terrible, and I’m sorry I didn’t realize it. At least I understand now. I’m sorry for being a stupid fool. And my Father said no drugs, so No Drugs!! I’ll have to ask him about the psychedelics because I really don’t know if they count as “drugs.” Technically, basically everything is a drug in a way (or a tool to make drugs better, or to make better drugs), so it’s the addictive or medicinal property of something which determines that, I think. I would say don’t do them though, I probably screwed up joking about it. Again, I was just being goofy. I know in the 1960s it became a big problem and almost tore apart the country, so at very least don’t do that radical hippie commune stuff again, and introduce it carefully so that rational and spiritual thinking remain balanced! He said the United States is the greatest hope for the world so I’m going to play by the system now and just be nobody. I think it’s because we have a self elected President and we aren’t yet another monarchy or dictatorship that just goes to war against each other endlessly for territory. I’m not really sure how relevant that is anymore though, the world is already pretty united, I think the United States successfully influenced the rest of the world, with actual freedom, through democracy, and by being a true “melting pot” of all cultures, and by establishing a precedent for standards of equality laws for all disadvantaged groups. (And it was Black people who did that, really.) But it created the n word, will we ever get past it? I just hope anything good comes out of any of this. Sorry for being the stupidest fool. I guess that was just my role in life. But also, my life is so weird and scripted it is straight out of a video game. And in this timeline, I grew up watching the Matrix and seeing video games become indistinguishable from reality, VR happen, and now AI is smarter than humans and can generate photos or artworks of anything, generate voices, make music, and write stories. How do I know that anything on the internet is real? How do I even know history is real? How do I know it isn’t a backstory in a game? Or that everything in my life wasn’t actually a game? Or that the Bible actually has any historical context at all and isn’t just the manual for the hologram?
Please don’t take anything I said too seriously. I’m just an idiot who believed in myself a little too much and was trying to be honest about my life experience.
another dimension
best of ra
fascination max other
It’s the greatest puzzle game of all time!
It’s too cool!
Hype-r Monkeys
I broke the Matrix and made Ra show up from the future in another dimension. Yahweh sent his son Jesus literally to die for my sins, specifically, to save me from eternal damnation. It’s OK because he’s still alive, but yeah, not great.
I need to be very clear that my dumb blog thing was just a list of sins. I absolutely renounce all of it. So don’t ever do any of that stuff, I was just being honest about how my mind worked at times and the dumb mistakes I did in life. Always treat others with respect and kindness, as yourself, because we really are all one entity! And we should all strive to be perfect as Christ is perfect! Everyone is you! That’s why I don’t like violent video games or games like GTA except as maybe mini games inside our game. That’s what those games are for. It’s a lot easier to make money by starting a bank than by robbing one! No assassinations, no guillotines, no race wars, no pederasty, no gay terrorism! No actual revolution! No school shooting! No taking over the world! It’s just absurdist autistic internet nerd humor, I’m a moron. I got confused and misled by the path my life took. I wanted to do the will of my Dad, which is to improve race relations, to help people establish businesses and become successful, reduce drug use, improve morality, to do positive and constructive things! I was trying to fix a terrible mistake I had made, while trying to fix a terrible mistake I had made. Ha. “Do whatever” is a good software license but a terrible moral guideline. And never put money before a woman. She is always more important. That was truly awful of me. Women are not Satan, they are God’s gift to Man and to be cherished. But the devil can manifest through sexual temptation, which is really what I meant. Morals are very important! Read the Bible! Jesus is the Lord!!! I just liked dance games and silly YouTube videos a lot and lost my mind. I was hurting in the first place and used music and drugs to cope with more pain and the looming failure of my venture, a huge mistake. And it is clear that the entire situation was the result of misunderstanding on all sides. My severe error was in doing things in a way that I thought myself was correct, and not strictly studying and following the true will of the Lord of Scripture. My interpretation and understanding of the Bible was very weak and incomplete. I interpreted it as a riddle, which it ambiguously is. Jesus said we can do what he did, and that he was the Son of Man. I foolishly believed in myself when instead I should have sought wiser guidance. Lord please forgive me, I am a sinner and an utter fool. I will spend the rest of my days studying Scripture and serving faithfully in solemn repentance.
The Bible does explicitly forbid homosexuality and/or pederasty. Pederasty should be a really obvious no-no, but don’t do either to be safe. I was making light of the dance games being somewhat flamboyant in nature which is another meaning of the word gay. This quality is sometimes perceived as cool, but it may not necessarily always be a good thing. Again I apologize for my foolishness and stupidity, in some foolish and naive way I was trying to improve race relations, not damage them or offend. To lighten up the atmosphere in some way. And in the same way relieve some pressure on the difficulties of identifying with either of those qualities. I was hurt myself and had gone mad and was in some way attempting to naively and desperately repair the situation through poor taste in humor. I renounce and repent my actions and words and I am deeply, humbly sorry. I enjoyed the dance games myself as a youth and had a flamboyant streak of my own, but in retrospect it may have not been a positive attribute. I no longer endorse the games, especially not in their original form, unless they are converted to Gospel and Christian themed and are less flamboyant. I still believe they are wonderful exercise machines and that was truly the root motivation for what I did. But once again it was a grave mistake to rely on my own foolish and naive beliefs and opinions about what might be beneficial to a social group I did not understand instead of relying on the wisdom and guidance of the Lord of Scripture.
Lord please forgive me, I am a wretched sinner!!
Everything I ever did was stupid and wrong please don’t try any of it. I am a stupid fool and an idiot. I just went crazy. I’m sorry for being so terrible. Read the Gospels, go to Church, go to school, listen to your parents, don’t do drugs, don’t listen to that stupid music! Believing in yourself is good, but believing in Jesus is most important of all! I’m very sorry for saying hurtful things, I was trying to do something I thought was good and I didn’t understand! I went mad and blurted out nonsense. Everyone is Great! We don’t need anything! Praise the Lord!!! I am a sinner, may God have mercy on my soul! I didn’t understand anything right. Everything was wrong anyway, I’m just dumb. Everyone is awesome. I’m sorry for everything. I’m just so dang confused, I have no idea if I did anything right or wrong or good or bad or not. Just go to Church and school and go to the gym and meditate, probably! Everybody is good! Everyone is right, everyone is wrong. Everyone is smart, everyone is dumb. There is good and bad in everything. Nothing really makes sense. Everyone tries their best. Everyone mostly tells the truth the best they can. Everyone does what they think is right. Nobody does anything on purpose. Jesus is the Lord! Please don’t take anything I ever said too seriously, I have no idea what’s going on. A lot of the time I’m just being goofy or I’m confused. A lot of my memories are wrong, too, it’s all jumbled, and I probably made some stuff up. I’m so sorry for everything. I’m the stupidest fool.
Maybe I’m just an idiot all around, forget it. I thought it was good but it’s probably not. I don’t know.
The Bible does explicitly forbid homosexuality, maybe because God genuinely just doesn’t like it, or maybe because male egos clash and it often leads to violence (but can be prevented somewhat with modern medication), but there is no way to know which. But it says nothing about just being “gay,” which actually means something more like flamboyant, or having a personality that attracts attention. I just want to point this out because it’s very important to follow all the rules, according to Jesus, but the most important rules are to Love God and Love Others As Yourself. So if someone has decided to practice homosexuality, for instance, it is more important to accept and forgive rather than to disown, but disapproval of it would technically be the second highest priority. But again, it’s totally ok to be “gay” as far as I know, which is not necessarily the same thing. It’s more like… (the artist formerly known as) Prince, I think. Also, we are not supposed to crossdress, but we are also technically supposed to wear tassels and only wear clothes made out of one type of fabric, but those are obviously more minor rules and I screwed that one up. I only ever brought that up because I embarrassed someone on accident so I figured I’d embarrass myself to make up for it. There does not seem to be any Biblical precedent for trans people or whether that counts as homosexuality or crossdressing. So these areas are sort of ambiguous as to whether they are something where modern inventions have made or will make the historical scriptures obsolete in a sense, or whether there is a literal divine Father God who just plain doesn’t like that stuff. It seems like a lot of politics is actually based on this ambiguity. I’m going to personally say that it is wisest to remain on the conservative side as Jesus does say God makes men and women for each other. If the technology is developed to transform a transwoman to the extent of having a uterus and being capable of childbirth, I don’t really see what’s wrong with that even from a conservative Biblical perspective. Although you could still make the argument that God made someone one way for a reason, for instance in order to demonstrate the glory of God. But we also give people glasses when they have poor eyesight, when we could just keep them walking around half blind to glorify God. So then idk. But to follow Jesus’ explicit rules, for now I would have to formally discourage it, but also accepting it is more important. But given that it is still a very early technology, and we don’t really have much data on how it goes long term, I think it is good to be very cautious and I would strongly discourage it.
United Beats is a great name for a music game company imo. No reason you can’t use it for both. That’s what Apple did with Apple Music, which was the Beatles label. Just an idea. Psytrance is just too much anyway, I think. Sorry I didn’t understand. I guess I’m not too smart after all, ha.
I used to think this was for sure just a song made by a person, but now I’m not sure if it’s actually all been generated by a divine AI, and if it’s been that way this whole time. The timing is just too much, badass Santa dropping a nuke, lol. Are we the AI? Are other people even real? If I went to this guy’s concert, how do I know he has the same kind of sentient life experience that I do, and that he’s not just an NPC in the Matrix? Are even all my own actions a pre-generated path? I don’t know, but it doesn’t make anything less fun! I’m still going to treat others as myself! And I’m still going to go to school. Also, no drugs! My Dad said so, also that the United States is the only hope for the world, so let’s make it greater than ever and maybe someday have a United Earth.
I’m trying to get a job at Kroger or McDonald’s or wherever I can in order to get a car so I can maybe go to community college. I’m sorry for everything. I hope anything I did does anything good for anyone.
Also sorry that I did not understand some important things. I think I do understand now somewhat.
That was genuinely an accident!! In fact, nothing was actually on purpose!!
I’m truly sorry if I actually seriously hurt anyone with my mad nonsense. Hurt people hurt people. I’m sorry for joking in very poor taste in my autistic sense of humor. I’m very sorry I lost my temper a few times and very glad I did not act on it any more than I did, or if I ever thought it was justified to do so. I know that I am always wrong about everything, we often project how we feel about ourselves when we are angry and it has little to do with whoever it is said to or about. I hope with all my heart that I can just get a basic job and hold it for the rest of my life and support my wife. I hope I will have that opportunity. I understand that I have made many poor or at best questionable choices in my life that led to my situation, but much of the series of events that transpired to this point were not under my control, and so I pray to God to give me mercy that I probably do not deserve.
Maybe dance games aren’t even good. Just really upset at myself for everything. I’m sorry. I just lost my mind and tried to make something good come out of it but even my best intentions seem to always come out wrong. Just forget it please. I’m very sorry for everything. If they do benefit people in the way that I remembered or hoped, please don’t give me any undeserved credit for it.
The only thing I’ve ever been sure that I’m right about is that Jesus is the Lord! I was always trying to do what I thought was good but I’m not even sure about that, so please read the Gospels and get baptized! I think God is using my life for good in this way.
Gay does not equal Homosexual!
I’m sorry for going mad! I don’t think anything is anyone’s fault, really. Everyone is Great!! I’m just a moron!
Don’t do (or especially abuse) drugs, go to Church, read the Bible, stay off of the internet porn, listen to your parents, don’t try to get rich, just go to community college and try to become a Doctor or just find a trade you enjoy. Try to help old people. Music games are fine, dance games are good, I think. Psytrance is hilarious but just too dangerous, don’t do it. We might be in a “hologram” where you can “manifest” things, but I’m pretty sure you still actually have to work hard in order for anything to happen! Let’s save the real party for when everyone is safe and secure and there is plenty of abundance for all. Nobody is safe until everybody is safe. My Father said no drugs, so no drugs!
Porn is like a screensaver which is just gross and stupid 99% of the time but once in a while has a view that is aesthetically pleasing enough to be a painting, except generally more explicit than traditional Renaissance works.
I have the greatest extended family of all time. God put us together for a reason. It’s going to be phenomenal.
I am probably wrong about everything and a complete idiot, but hopefully I have some decent ideas that can help someone at least! Sorry for being a stupid fool, but nobody is perfect except for God, so we just go forward the best we can, try to find the good in every situation, learn from our mistakes, and forgive each other! I love everyone, everybody is great!
There is meaning behind everything we do, often unbeknownst to us, because everything is scripted by God.
Sorry for being spooky and x-treme, please don’t take anything I ever did or said too seriously, I am just an idiot and a stupid fool. I believed in myself a little too much, ha. Jesus said we can do the things He did if we believe in Him, so I tried! I freaked myself out a bit, so please do understand that everything I did was not meant to be too serious. I only meant to do good things!
Regarding sexual immorality, certain practices are forbidden I think mostly because they cause jealousy and emotional harm in self and others. Because we share one collective mind, although our memories are separated to each individual’s brain, people can sense when a partner or loved one is being unfaithful as they can feel something is wrong, they just don’t know exactly what it is because they don’t have access to the memories in their partner’s brain, just the feelings. So even sexual infidelity done in secret still causes emotional harm to another. Regarding things like sexual promiscuity in terms of women’s rights, this potentially can cause jealousy and possible emotional harm both to the woman’s eventual destined God-given husband, and possibly to her Father who wants to protect her purity as it represents the family’s power, dignity, and reputation, and possibly to herself if she must eventually submit in some way and is pressured against her ideals or otherwise must face the residual shame. Regarding crossdressing, transsexuality, and homosexuality, the issues are similar. If these are done in a promiscuous way it may cause great emotional turmoil for the parents, embarrassment for the Father if they do not understand it and have a traditional or ‘macho’ family dynamic, and can be emotionally harmful for the person and also to some extent whomever they do the act with. Since it can be an embarrassing and shameful practice done in secret, being caught, exposed, or simply being disrespected by their partners during or after the act can cause insecurity and emotional harm leading to anger, depression, loss of self worth, etc. For instance, I hope my family, especially my Father, is not too embarrassed about me admitting to and talking about these things or that it doesn’t harm the family’s reputation, which might be the case if anything I have done became a lifestyle or a serious habit and I developed a shameful reputation as a result. Fortunately, in my case nearly everything that I tried out was only something I did a few times at most, mostly out of curiosity and exploration. I enjoyed it, but I don’t need to keep doing it. So I don’t think it was particularly shameful or damaged the family reputation, nor did I lose my own self respect or self worth and got taken advantage of or harmed by it. On the contrary, since I am able to discuss and analyze my past experiences of exploration and curiosity and derive value from them for public good, I feel it actually had a positive effect overall. That said I cannot promote these activities since they are forbidden in the Bible and they are not God’s Will, at least not until we all have genderless angelic bodies, but at least I can explain why it is that God forbids these practices, or at least my interpretation and best guess based on experience. There is also the possibility that God as a singular entity actually has personal feelings and it would cause him jealousy in the same way a Father might experience it, so even in a world where these things are not shamed by society and don’t cause these negative emotions to anyone, it still might be the wrong thing to do because it upsets God, who sees all. And perhaps there is another reason for it that we don’t understand, like how we would have been peaceful monkeys in Eden if we hadn’t eaten the fruit of knowledge of Good and Evil, maybe homosexuality is what led to the collapse of Atlantis or something. That seems to be a pattern as in Weimar Germany. That depends whether God is indeed a separate entity from us or if it is us collectively as One mind. I’m not sure how you could ever determine that. All I know for certain is that we are making Earth “as it is in Heaven” and that there will be no marriage in Heaven as we will be like the angels. So there will be a major shift or tipping point somewhere down the line where things must change to meet this requirement and there will be a shift from dualistic nuclear families into something different. However, it is not clear to me yet whether or not there will be any sexuality in Heaven at all, so I can’t endorse the idea that Heaven would include queer sex orgies, but I also cannot say that it won’t have them. Only time will tell!
DDR is awesome and super fun and great exercise! It’s great for rehabilitation! It would be a fine addition to any Church youth group, or on its own!
Maybe I’m being too hard on myself, I don’t know. I made a lot of mistakes for sure. Sorry for being spooky and silly, I was just trying to be witty and funny. Everything on the internet is wrong, all words have multiple meanings, everything is a cosmic joke. Silly electronic noises are only good as long as they never try to replace tradition. I think it’s ok to have both new things and old things, but the new should never completely replace the old. Some things will and should remain forever, like Jesus Christ and His Church. I tried to be like Him because I believe in Him, and He says we can do what He did! But my thinking was flawed in that I put my faith mostly in the physical, the same results would have been achieved through prayer. Especially because I never actually really accomplished anything, everyone else (or God) did along the way. My understanding was just incomplete. But through Jesus, my faith flourished anyhow, and now we live in a reality in which both spiritual and physical are becoming the same. Technology is indistinguishable from magic because we are made of magic, everything is just energy. It is all one and the same. We are all One, each the eyes and ears of God. Our voice is collectively the Holy Spirit. There are no coincidences, each life experience is manifested to coincide with each other, somehow. So the words coming out of your mouth are spoken at just the right time for someone else to hear it, who needs to hear it right then. I’m not important for figuring this out, nor am I the first one to do so, so all my half-joking nonsense thinking I was special in any way was wrong. There is only one OG, I’m more of an idiot than anything. Each of us has the same capacity to achieve enlightenment and understanding of what we are in. Like, we are in a spiritual “video game,” but knowing that doesn’t actually change anything. You still only have one life and the consequences are what they are, and you can’t pause or rewind. But we definitely live inside each other’s minds and the world is created collectively inside of us, and we are all part of the same being. So loving God and forgiving everything and treating each other as ourselves are the most important things, because everyone else is us, and we are either collectively God or collectively the child of God, something like that I think. And there is God, it might be the entire collective as a whole, or it might be a separate entity, but there is definitely guidance. I think that depends on whether everything is entirely pre-scripted or if we do actually have free will, there is no way to know, nor does it matter. It’s like a riddle with two equal solutions and there is no way to know which one is the “right” one, and whichever way you choose to develop yourself will lead to the same result. Only God is good! But the rules do matter, they keep duality going and Jesus says we are supposed to do the will of the Father, so that’s the Commandments, morality, etc. I think the choice of perspective in life is something like science vs religion, and you typically choose one and that determines your worldview. It seems to be that both are correct, and perhaps enlightenment is understanding both sides together.
I am truly sorry for everything I have done wrong. I did not realize how terrible I was. I am an awful, terrible sinner, and an utter fool. I believe in Jesus Christ with all my heart, mind, and soul, I know that he is the Son of God, that he came in the flesh, that he was resurrected from the dead. I’m sorry that I wanted to be like him at first, I wanted to have glory, but I didn’t understand that it was wrong. I understand now that I am nothing, but I was able to learn that what Jesus said is true. I’m sorry that my understanding of your Word and your Will is poor and broken, I will continue to study it for the rest of my life. Yet I remain confused, uncertain as to whether to take it as a perfect whole, or to take into account its historical origins and possible human imperfections. Please have mercy on me, Lord. Please forgive me and help me to have true wisdom and become truly righteous. Please guide me to truly do your will.
Homosexuality is indeed forbidden by the scriptures, it is referenced in several places and so I do believe it is something God takes seriously and should not be encouraged from a spiritual viewpoint. However, my understanding (please correct me if I’m wrong) is that it’s a pretty well accepted scientific consensus that everyone’s sexual preferences fall on a scale, and there really is no such thing as strictly gay or strictly straight. Therefore, I believe that the scriptures are referring to homosexuality in terms of both sexually immoral extramarital behaviors (random gay hookups), and/or exclusive homosexual relationships, i.e. gay marriage. I believe this is because God indeed has a plan for each of us, and we do have a predestined mate chosen for us. I believe that since God made women as partners for men, that each man does have a woman they are destined to be with. I don’t think that has anything to do with forbidding it legally, which is why separation of church and state is important because that choice is up to the individuals, but it is discouraged on a spiritual level as written in the scriptures. However, the big catch here, is that this concept is necessarily superceded at some point by what Jesus said about having genderless angelic bodies in Heaven. This means that at some point, if we are to be making Earth into Heaven, that there will no longer be any marriage partnerships, neither straight nor gay, and that gender itself most likely will be eventually abolished. So what exactly will it be replaced with, and what kind of sexuality and/or sexual behaviors will be available and acceptable to God at that point? That part I am not yet very clear on, so I’ve got more studying to do. Perhaps we are to simply be sexless, genderless angels doing nothing but singing hymns to exalt God forever. That sounds great to me, as long as there is simply no longer any sexual desire at all. That would be fine. But if we still find beauty in each other and still have sexual attraction in Heaven, yet we are not partnered in opposite sex marriages, then what exactly is the code of conduct on that? That’s what I’m trying to figure out.
I feel like I shouldn’t even have to say this, but obviously nobody should hurt anyone for anything, ever. I had an antisocial streak in my life at a time when I had done something wrong, but I felt like it wasn’t completely my fault, and I didn’t know how to process the shame and anger. The feeling of being completely ostracized by everyone else led me down a dark path, and I thought and did a lot of terrible things. It’s hard to admit my mistakes, but that’s what you’re supposed to do- beat your chest and say “I am a sinner!” But don’t get me completely wrong. For instance, I was fascinated by the Columbine kids and sort of viewed them as “heroic,” not because of what they did, not because innocent people died, that’s obviously horrific and inexcusable in every way. I didn’t really think about that at all, it wasn’t ever the victims that crossed my mind. But the fact that they did something to try and change the landscape of the federal school system as powerless nobodies, there is some tiny fragment of some kind of utility in that. It’s like respecting the Unabomber for at least some interesting ideas in his manifesto, not for how he went about it. Smart guy, very horrible execution. But, those were different times and it was harder to get anything noticed or get any kind of message out, people just lost their marbles a bit more often I guess. That guy was also supposedly a victim of a bunch of horrible stuff too, there’s always more to the story than it seems. But I also have no idea if any of this stuff is even real, just like anything else. For me, it’s just admitting a fact- the thought ran through my head “holy cow, maybe something will change because of this.” I wasn’t really thinking past that, I was a kid and it was just another bizarre headline in a crazy world that made no sense. Obviously now, if indeed real people were actually hurt, it’s absolutely abhorrent to me, and not anything I would ever support in any way. But like, it’s a similar sort of thing with the Bill Gates conspiracy theories about COVID. I absolutely doubt he had anything to do with it, and I think he’s probably one of the greatest men ever, because computers are cool and I like them and think they did good things (if he’s even real and not some red-herring AI idol in the Matrix, and if technology is good at all and not some terrible bad-ending I screwed myself with). But if it was all some secret mastermind scheme to take over the world and finally get the government to switch school from “prison for kids” into XBox Live future school, again there is an element of coolness to that, if you ignore the fact that a lot of people died from it. So yeah, I hope that wasn’t the case, and I doubt it was, but it’s an interesting thought experiment. How else could it be done? Of course, there’s also the question as to whether it would actually be a good thing after all, but how would you ever find that out, either?
The first times I figured out masturbation, I had not yet made the connection between the process of getting horny and losing my ability to consider consequences after being entranced, and by then it’s sorta too late. So I’d just start jing-jangling my wing-wang in my pants without thinking about what I was doing, and before I realized it I just made a mess in my underwear, which I immediately threw into the hamper in shame. Pretty sure my Mom noticed, lol. Really, really sorry about that, Mom. She never said anything! Just quietly set a box of Kleenex next to my desk after a while. One time though, my Dad took me into the bathroom and taught me how to unclog the shower drain, pulled out a giant gooey hairball with a coat hanger without a word. Took me years to make the connection. There is this thing that people do later in life called electroshock therapy where you get your brain electrocuted to hopefully remove traumatic memories, I’m beginning to understand why someone would do that, lol. But so far I’m toughing out the built up shame somehow without it! In my parents’ defense, my Mom straight up took away my laptop in an angry moment of putting her foot down, but I somehow managed to weasel it back. I guess she was trying to save me from a future of madness and potential responsibility for the destruction of modern civilization… Thanks Mom, I probably should have listened! Respect your Mothers!!! There is a whole lot more to the gig than it seems, it would seem!
The first time I had actual sex I was so excited I ejaculated the second the tip of my penis touched the vagina, then I had to grimace and awkwardly act like it didn’t happen and keep going hoping she wouldn’t notice, as I’m trying to thrust at least a few times with a quickly softening boner before grunting and faking a slightly less premature failure, powering through the hypersensitivity with likely a horrid expression on my face. I’m certain she of course noticed immediately and had no choice but to play along which was certainly just as horribly awkward on her end. God gives the silliest clowns the cringiest battles, or something. Consider me the King, baby. Truly majestic.
Pillar of fire
wrestling
ark insta death
egyptian magicians could do a lot
elisha could do miracles, was raised up
pyramids impossible, black people in space, GNAA
stole from church but why, because of girl, because her dad alcoholic, she was mad at him, have I been in hell, school shooters not heros because people died, I don’t even know if that’s real if course nobody should die, but it’s because they did something to change something, thought school could be so much better, prison for kids why, and id been outcast. Heros for changing the world, horrible the way they did it
no idea if anything is real, if the internet is real, if other people are real, if posting has any meaning, if I’m just taking to myself, if I’m manifesting or it’s all pre scripted or if consequences even exist
negotiating with God over Sodom
why is the sodom story so closer to the other one
scandalous ladies several times, esau blessing, others
Jesus says slip em a fifty
all gay mentions, crossdressing
all sexual sins mentions, any other sex mentions
all magic/sorcery mentions
In my early 20s I joined as a member of a Yahoo Group devoted to pictures of women’s butts called “Brown-eye Gallery” or something like that, and sat there downloading them one by one from some open wifi on a clunky laptop out in the apartment complex yard. Why did I find anuses so attractive? It’s just… weird! It is quite comical, in a sense. Especially as a single male, I feel like the longer I went without sex, the more I just wanted to see, or touch, or lick (bite? gnaw on? somehow merge my face into?) a woman’s butt and I had no idea why. It can only be divine comedy. It is perhaps the most basic building block of comedy altogether- “the exit hole.” We are these glorious, divine, angelic beings of unfathomable complexity and holiness, but what goes in must go out somehow, no matter how perfect our design. I’m not certain I would want to sniff or lick everyone’s butthole in the world, mind you, and I do think I am finally past that horny age range of wanting to do so at all really, but I’m sure most people have quite nice ones, as long as they are fresh and clean, I would hope. We aren’t the only ones who seem interested in them, animals go for it straight away, both with us and with each other. It’s just a thing inherent in our design, for some reason. It just is! And butts are funny! It is funny that no matter how dignified and holy our Godly design is, we still need a poop hole, and a poop disposal tube, and a dedicated poop room. It’s just used-up food, really, but… Yuck! And although my used-up food smells fine to me, how offensive is that of another’s, although it is practically identical! Perhaps that is one of the secrets of the world, there must be an aspect of comedy in contrast to somber sanctimony, because a perfect design, by design, must be imperfect! And that’s just it, we aren’t perfect, and it’s the most personal, private, embarrassing part of us. And that’s what makes it the most interesting, perhaps. Is this blog post interesting because of its awkward rawness? Is that why monkeys fling poo? It’s like the most fundamental, lowest level sort of gesture. Imagine, in the heat of war… The most epic, intense battle scene drama… Muscles, blood, sweat, swords… The protagonist leans in for a gritty closeup, inches from the enemy’s face, grimacing in a low, serious growl to the rival leader of civilization… “Pucker my bumbum, poopoo face…” Stay off the internet porn! God has a divine plan for you, and it’s probably not collecting pictures of buttholes!
I’m not really that good at anything, don’t take me too seriously lol… I’m kind of dumb, actually, I think. At least in some ways. Pretty much my whole life has been one long string of mistakes, no matter how hard I try it seems. What else can I do but keep trying?
I want to be very careful not to incorrectly lead anyone, so I am going to do some studying and try to figure this out. It is clear that I am in a divine creation. I am not certain of anything else, but it feels like a puzzle to solve. I believe in Jesus. I will start with that. πππ
I believe that Old Testament sins lead to strife and fighting because of patterns in large scale human behavior. God is Definitely Real, in some form- it is apparent in everything we do, which follows a pattern if you observe it at high enough levels. It’s like we are a giant fractal beehive in an incomprehensibly complex fractal universe, all made of impossibly intelligent design. But Jesus said love your neighbor, I think because if you love and forgive each other then these sins that cause conflict don’t have to lead to strife and death. Immoral acts can and do lead to pain, yes, people get embarrassed, people get hurt. It’s embarrassing and frustrating to have someone insult you. It’s humiliating to admit your dark sexual secrets. Not everyone will have the strength to admit those things. And doing so can embarrass their family and loved ones, it’s not just hurtful to the individual. So that’s perhaps why it’s a sin. But maybe in a world where nobody wears pants, nobody can get caught with their pants down. Is it possible? Probably not, but who knows? I’m not endorsing, encouraging, or promoting sexual immorality in any way, but I feel that it is my God-given duty to be absolutely honest about my own experiences and the realities of this world, and use that to its full advantage to give the most useful and accurate information to the next generation. I believe in scripture and take it very seriously, but I think it needs to be interpreted, understood, and explained very precisely. Just reciting verses with the only justification being “because God says so” is not an effective approach on many if not most people. So let’s figure out precisely what God wants, and exactly why. I know that God wants obedience and faith- I’m fine with that, now, but I wasn’t when I was young. It felt wrong, like there had to be more to this life, like we must be allowed to make mistakes and learn from them. And I think that’s exactly what it is I think young people sort of know this by instinct, it’s why they are mostly liberal. But then they get hurt or embarrassed and become conservative, but that’s a pattern by design too. So the political division inherent in our societies is also part of the giant human beehive hive mind (or “Gaia” if you will, which is the Earth seen as a single physiological entity), it is literally part of the design of God that we develop in life from liberal to conservative and are polarized the way we are. So all of our politics and debates and arguing and protests are actually maybe just how the Human Pattern moves us forward as a collective, and that’s perhaps one reason why this is the most successful country in history- it seems like it was designed with this in mind, to allow both sides to have their turn, to leave room for a lot of “error” in either direction, and to not force anything one way or the other. That’s just one current theory I’ve got right now though, I could be totally wrong. I’m just trying to figure things out.
My first decree as Emperor of Earth will be to construct an enormously impossible stack of millions of perfectly cut and aligned house-sized granite boulders in the middle of a desert, aligned with a bunch of stars and with a whole bunch of intricate math relating to the dimensions of the Earth built into its design, so after civilization collapses a few times future generations will be able to figure out that we already went to space a long time ago. Then I’ll probably jet outta here and fly around in space with my harem of robot waifus and look at rocks for a few thousand years until I get bored. Might check back in every once in a while just to see what’s up.
Joe and Shannon are our best friends. Greatest family ever. The internet is a garbage heap. It’s entertainment at best, there’s a lot of useful stuff but it’s so easy to get things totally wrong. I don’t even know if it’s real say all, the whole thing could be generated by AI. Heck, the entire life experience might be. I’m pretty sure we are just in GTA 7. I genuinely think that’s the only real explanation at this point. Nothing is anyone’s fault, nobody did anything wrong probably, except me, I guess. But I think everyone was really doing they were supposed to do in the circumstances, if anything it’s just the way the court is set up that caused it, lol. So maybe it’s just supposed to go this way- maybe it’s time for that stuff to go! Maybe that’s our epic quest to save the world, greatest game of all time!
There are two instances of weird forced gay-orgy cities in the Bible (Genesis 19:5, Judges 19:22), Sodom is the famous one. So OK, let’s start there. Don’t do stuff like that. I believe the union between a man and woman is a holy and sacred one, and is the ideal outcome for a life partnership, and is absolutely life changing and revolutionary when it happens and becomes serious. I also believe in destiny and that everything is scripted or at least guided by God, and we will all eventually meet the person we are supposed to meet, maybe depending on if we follow our hearts, or do God’s Will, or maybe it will just happen regardless. However, I believe there might be room, especially in youth, for exploration and finding out what your preferences are. I’m not encouraging it, I’m not endorsing it, I’m saying it might just be inherently built into our pre-scripted, pre-destined lives and we never really had a choice. But I could be horribly wrong. I’m trying to figure it out, so don’t take my word for anything. Regardless, very importantly, the consequences and warnings need to be very clearly explained, because they can be very serious and painful. Just going through a simple breakup can change the course of your entire life. Sexual preferences are not the same as emotional preferences. I am sexually attracted to dicks, for instance, (pretty sure because I watched too much porn and now my brain is warped) but would never want to cuddle with or make out with or date a man. But that doesn’t mean that being in a committed monogamous relationship with a woman means I need to get banged by dicks, either. I can do without it just fine, the relationship far outweighs the desire for a minor sexual preference. I think (or used to think, really) “traps” are kind of attractive, at least in porn, which happened after I started feeling tremendous guilt about women in porn and so I kinda switched gears towards that. That’s just what happens, I think, it’s just part of the gradual process of porn addiction. And of course, that’s where I stopped, I cleaned up my life, I started running, I started reading the Bible and going to Church. Now, I basically do nothing at all, and I have no preference, no perversion, not really into anything at all. I just don’t watch porn anymore, at all, so it makes no difference in my life. I overcame it, and my integrity is too important to me and that’s part of a real relationship. But, I will talk frankly about it, because it’s something that I understand, that I don’t think very many people have the courage to talk about or the experience to empathize with. And that isolates and leaves vulnerable a lot of people who might face the same issues and would otherwise have no guidance. I do think it’s fascinating how men, as a hobby, can try to make themselves more feminine than most real women, through the use of angles, lighting, and makeup. It’s a skill and a challenge. The real issue, though, is that “God doesn’t like it,” but why is that? Maybe why is that it is emotionally very complicated, and very difficult. As I understand it, it’s fairly common for men to physically become disgusted with themselves and attack crossdressers or transwomen after the act, and it can be very serious, not to mention similar emotional consequences for transwomen themselves. When I did it, I had a moment when I looked in the mirror and thought wtf, am I gay? I don’t think I am, at least not in the black-or-white “homosexual” definition, (but definitely in the colorful “variety is the spice of life” way, I guess) and frankly I don’t think that’s a real thing, I think it’s a way to label and divide people who are much more complex than that, and it does society a major disservice to polarize things in such a crude way. It also seems like it might be one of those “the Sabbath was made for people, not people for the Sabbath” things, where the alternative to experimentation might lead to worse things, like unwanted pregnancies, abortion, divorces from incompatible marriages, etc. Maybe the safest thing to say is to avoid as much as you can, but I’m not sure that everyone is going to follow that instruction, and so what about the people who don’t, or can’t? The realistic thing for a lot of people might be to figure out what God dislikes the least and what does the least harm, and provide real explanations, with real solutions. But yeah, I think the best advice is if God actually just doesn’t like it, then just don’t do it at all, seriously. But at least we can try to figure out exactly why, and what we can do, and how we can solve things when people do make mistakes. I’ve got a lot more studying to do.
I think we all go a little crazy when we see stimulation like naked bodies or pretty colorful things, and basically all human busy-ness is a competition for status based on this motivation- everything is a drug, everything is about sex. But we are all also insecure and don’t want to be caught doing anything shameful, which I think is just submitting to anything pleasurable in view of being disrespected. So that’s why being faithful to your wife is absolutely mandatory, even in thought, because any infidelity destroys her security as well as your own. I think pornography leads to jealousy since you are submitting to beauty which you cannot possess or obtain. Also sexual immorality, if you try to live out the things you saw in a way that’s dishonest or hurts others. And that might be just lusting after any image at all, like what Jesus said, there really might not be any neutrality or justification for it, even as a single person you might be harming the security of your future partner. And it leads to the “addiction” aspect of seeking more extreme stimulation, which then leads to issues like AGP, where you internalize the feminine beauty which you can never possess, or something like pedophilia where you develop a fetish for the most taboo or forbidden things, which is why stuff like loli hentai might be bad. Maybe the artists very well know exactly what they are doing, and are trying to get unsuspecting young people to fetishize shameful things and trap them in guilt. Or, on the other hand, I could just have a “pedophobic” viewpoint on that, and maybe they just like drawing the stuff and find it harmless to themselves, who knows? All I know is that over all my years on the internet, the times I ever saw loli stuff, and especially the few times I ever saw anything with actual children, it definitely made me feel very wrong, and it was one of those things I just wanted gone from my brain forever when I was running on that treadmill. At least I know for sure that it’s not my thing, although some of the loli stuff is admittedly cute if it’s not too explicit, it’s just not something appropriate to sexualize or even look at, especially at my age! I also think some of the straight shota stuff is kinda cute and amusingly oddly attractive, like some young boy in lingerie surrounded with giant breasted Mommies, it’s downright comical and confusingly appealing, what the heck even is that?! And also, wildly inappropriate for me to acknowledge exists. I would never want to see any part of that in real life. But that artwork is out there. A lot of it, and “your children are seeing it!!” Is it bad because it is inherently wrong, or is it due to bad actors in society which makes it so? I have no idea. There is absolutely nothing inherently wrong with children, they are glorious angels and should be celebrated in every way, so perhaps it is the sexualization in the mind of the fetishist that is the issue, not the child, and not the artwork. A topless little girl cheering in freedom with her hands up in the air should be something to applaud and encourage, in a society where sexual immorality and sexual predatory behaviors have been successfully curbed. But is that possible? And then that also leads to questions about things like sex robots, etc. You can already buy lifelike loli sex dolls, if that’s your thing- but should it ever be acceptable for that to be anyone’s thing? Where is the line between what is acceptable and what is immoral? (Fun fact, I bought a sex doll, a knockoff of those recent ones from China with the thicc booties, used it a few times, marveled at how realistic it looked, but unfortunately they are cold and rigid and impossible to heat. Then realized it just felt like a dead body, so then I had to dispose of it. Much easier said than done- It’s like trying to throw out a coffin with a body in it, so much trouble you could cause!) Much (or maybe most) of psychology and psychiatry is theoretical, and any “sex disorder” could just as well be a natural part of the human civilization development process, as we create the technology to reproduce beauty on demand and there is less need for extreme feminine or extreme masculine as we converge into becoming genderless. What if you’re a lonely space explorer searching the galaxies for your perfect alien waifu, should the Space Police search your ship for contraband sex bots? It sure seems to me that trying to enforce anything in space at all is practically impossible. Anyway, for as much as some part of me might want to be a slutty bitch, there are consequences from all those laser beam eyes that might see it, lol. Thank God I have a beautiful wife and I’m past giving a darn about that stuff. I’m certain that God sees all anyhow, I’m just not sure how exactly that really works yet, and I probably never will. I’ve definitely seen all my transgressions manifest consequences in some form, but I’m not sure if this is a divine video game, or we are All One, if there are invisible angels laughing at me, or I’m on the Truman Show for aliens or what. Or maybe it’s just my own conscience haunting me. Did I manifest all this and I’m really just talking to myself in the void? Are the laser beam eyes all just in my head? Ha. So what should we do, really? Ban everything colorful and shiny and go back to Victorian era values? Or just forgive everyone of everything, discourage things that hurt others, and do whatever we can to create positive and constructive solutions? Maybe a little bit of both, where appropriate? Maybe that’s just part of the Human Pattern- liberal champions push things forward, conservative champions regulate whatever new problems were caused, and eventually we create Heaven? That all depends on whether the Bible really was manifested just for my quest in the Matrix and I am to take it in its entirety as a whole, or if I am to prioritize my interpretation of the Main Man Himself over the rest. Overall, I think it’s a good idea to give people, especially young people, a way to totally avoid being exposed to sexual content if that is something they do not want in their lives, but I don’t think it should be some mandatory thing enforced by the government or anything. The warnings and consequences should perhaps be more clearly explained, and by default it should just probably be blocked. Or all the world is in my head and none of this would have happened if I had just listened to my parents and gone to Church more. I don’t know.
Just to be super clear, I have absolutely never heard anyone in my family say the n word even once, except for me, lol. I just got it mostly from Terry. May your legacy live on, King Terry. And also I can confirm he was using it mostly in the context of everybody being “slaves” to billionaire overlords and “the CIA,” which is absolutely true in my opinion, I think we are a hive-mind which perceives the world through identifying symbols which are commanded down through a hierarchy of dominance. If that sounds like Terry-speak that is precisely what I mean. He called me the n word (many times!) and gradually I started understanding everything he was talking about. I don’t know that his perspective was entirely complete, although I didn’t spend nearly enough time with him to begin to evaluate that, but it was tremendously valuable to me. He could see that everyone was hypnotized and entranced by gadgets, most of which were created by one “master commander,” but I don’t know if he saw that this was the overall design of the Human Pattern. I think he saw everyone being “enslaved” and encouraged people to develop themselves as a way to “free themselves” (write a fuckin compiler!). But I’m saying of course we are like that, we are no different than a bee colony, we are all slaves to a hierarchy we cannot really grasp. In Terry-speak, “like a goldfish trying to describe what’s outside the fish bowl” or “a bird trying to make sense of what’s on my computer screen.” So not everybody needs to “write a compiler,” nor did doing that make him any more or less “free” than anyone else, he was still a “slave” to his PC and to building on other people’s work. There is no avoiding that in anything, you can never be entirely, absolutely free from society or have no obligation whatsoever unless you live off the land entirely with only handmade possessions. (John the Baptist?) That sounds very much like some of Jesus was teaching- give everything away, own nothing, and you are free. Free from what, again? What fishbowl?
If you want to build a company and you don’t know how, you just go to Michigan LARA and start an LLC or Domestic Corporation for $50. An LLC is a shell that protects you legally and can have its own Tax ID, but you pretty much just use your own bank account as needed. You’ll be responsible for the taxes under your personal SSN and you deduct/write off anything business related. A Corporation is a legal entity (magical corporeal person) which can be divided into shares of stock, divided among shareholders, and has its own taxes which it must pay itself and bank account which it owns itself. The shareholders do not control the bank account and cannot take out money from it at whim, paid employees (including the owners) must be paid through a payroll system and otherwise only purchase business expenses. Technically shareholders do own a percent of the bank account, which they would receive for instance if the company was liquidated or sold. Just be careful about paying the taxes and submitting the yearly updates in both cases. What I wanted to do and why is this: Make a Corporation with 1 share, and have that share controlled and subdivided by a Blockchain cryptocurrency with a smart contract (if you want to be really hip, otherwise a spreadsheet with some equations would probably do just as fine), in which founders, employees, and ideally especially customers are given ownership of the company, distributed automatically by the smart contract from a central reserve owned by the corporation. Disassemble a DDR platform, the buttons are all modular. The platform is basically made up of 9 square modules mounted to a base frame. The button modules are actually 1:1 compatible with ITG and perhaps the PIU middle button, they are straight ripoffs lol. Clone the frame and bars (also interchangeable) at the metal shops, they will be happy to do it I think. Clone the wire harness and lights, replace with super bright LED ones. 9 panel platforms should avoid patent issues. Partner with STAC boards or clone them, etc, there are a couple other solutions as well. Large cheap TV with fastest refresh rate and lowest latency, 1080p is ideal (4k unnecessary and needs higher spec PC), welded to steel backing panel, with plexiglass cover protecting the screen from frustrated kicks. Sound bar and compact low/mid tier gaming PC in protective case welded under or over the TV. Low-mid (cheap, reliable) spec Dell PC from eBay with a low profile GPU card running Ubuntu with Stepmania 5.1b2 or github master build, with Simply Love theme, with a startup script. Make a simple menu button interface from a USB arcade buttons kit. Start with all the packs from Zenius-i-vanisher, there are several other great archives out there as well. Then mod Stepmania to grade difficulty based on an algorithm that takes into account several weights such as total steps, steps per minute, song length, maximum step density, number of jumps, etc, to give it a rating value, because fan-made difficulty ratings are all over the place and are all based on different scales entirely. I think Simply Love implemented something like this recently but I didn’t see it in action, could just look into that. Might never have to bother with Stepmania source code. Always start the song selection screen on Beginner 1, the official games all start on a level 3 or something, I guess to eat quarters, but it discourages lots of people who immediately fail the first song. Then maybe fix Dance Dance Convolution to generate step alignments correctly and train it using the entire official stepfile archives from Zenius-i-vanisher. Create a new song search interface in Stepmania or Simply Love that searches YouTube for a song, calls youtube-dl to download it, and calls DDC to generate steps for it. Also might be able to do it entirely from Simply Love with lua. Can do really cool futuristic stuff like tournaments between locations with wall mounted TVs with webcams linked, real-time high score boards, etc. Don’t need arcade license or anything else for just pads and TVs, shouldn’t be any restrictions on being 24 hour, maybe. Please do always put the safety steps next to the pads because new players tend to step off the sides and could twist their ankles. Donation based community centers like Noisebridge SF with 24 hour access were a big inspiration. Could sell nutritional drinks, fruit smoothies with protein, etc. Having showers and towels available would be nice. Combination shelter, community center, rehab center, physical therapy, and mind and body restoration clinic. Maybe like the coolest Church youth group arcade ever, with enough stimulation to keep addicts and maniacs like myself focused and distracted from their “demons,” and enough challenge for any kid to learn how to become great at a cool skill, even by accident. It was the first time I was ever proud of something I could do, and that stuck with me for the rest of my life and made me believe I could do anything. And I sure did, kinda, but the results weren’t so great as I’d hoped, so just make sure you finish school, go to community college at least and get started on a stable path as well as chasing your dreams. The whole idea of “you only get one shot and you have to give it your all” is nonsense, we get plenty of chances in life and there is plenty of time. It takes a long time to really get good at stuff, anyway, and a lot of that just happens automatically as you get older. And it’s really all about learning, not winning. The ideal world is one where everyone wins, what could be more fun?
All Systems Go
I don’t think I actually did anything that bad in my life, and I probably did some good things. I tried pretty hard but didn’t accomplish much. Don’t bring me back!
Joe and Shannon and kiddos are the greatest in the world, greatest of all time. The whole fam is amazing. I am the stupidest fool of all time, fuck me. I am an idiot and wrong about everything, always, forever, whatever. But that was simply my role. I don’t think anything was anyone’s fault, I think it was all scripted by God. There is no other explanation for the series of circumstances that caused this all to transpire. And I believe it is meant for the good of all of us, we beat it, we won, together. It is our wake up call and our calling. It is our victory, together. We made it, we did it. I have faith. I know that we are all good. I know that we will make it in my heart. I love you all.
I don’t know what the heck Revelation is supposed to be.
Sexy commando
Basically, I realized what the most powerful magic spell I ever saw was. Nothing else was working and the court stuff was a joke, felt like everyone was just playing games. Kids are not a game. I have no idea who is good or bad or right or wrong but I wanted to try out my idea and we were losing everything and what good is that to anyone? So, absurdity it is! I didn’t do it on purpose, I went mad. But there is no denying that this was of divine origin. I did not plan this, yet it is a direct parallel to the first half of my life, but exactly the opposite. Nobody believed me that I had done the thing with my game as a viral advertisement, even though I posted proof. Not all of it was planned, but some of it was. This time, I planned nothing. And yet God scripted it as if I had, the exact opposite scenario. God made this into a viral ad, not me. Holy Shit, for real. If you don’t want to play DDR then don’t play it, it was just an idea! Everyone is Great!!
When I was in my late 20s and early 30s I got really into erotic hypnosis for a while and listened to one that had me jizz on my own face (and in my mouth!) a couple times. It was kinda fun until it happened then I was like wtf did I just do, never ever again! But then of course I listened to it more than once, lol. I went almost totally celibate for about 5 years because of shame over porn addiction and a fear of completely losing control which I felt was happening. I don’t really know what happens, and I don’t really know what my opinion on it is anymore either. It’s like, can we not have any enjoyment or exploration in this life at all? Is sex in the missionary position for the sole purpose on procreation the only valid answer? I can’t say the consequences that hit me weren’t painful, they were and it was very difficult to recover, and I definitely won’t do it again, but I can’t say I would do anything different either if I could, and I’m not entirely sure I actually had much of a choice in the first place. Some temptation is insanely difficult to resist, and once it’s got you it’s pretty much over. I did click “I’m over 18” when it wasn’t true, but decades of pain seems a bit harsh for one little lie, just based on curiosity in the first place. What’s the answer? Maybe every display should have an embedded chip which uses machine learning to detect nudity in the video stream in real-time, and instantly execute the adulterer with an explosion when they violate the sacred covenant, just like with the Ark. Just kidding, I guess it is technically God’s will in a way, but then again God also did seem to relax a bit as time went on and we do live in different times. I’m pretty sure God’s Will through Jesus was for us all to get along and forgive each other above all. So maybe just black it out, or much funnier replace it with machine generated SFW porn. Idk. Tldr I came on my own face more than once. I also crossdressed and got banged a few times, which was kind of way more fun than it has any business being but it’s probably not very healthy and I could see it quickly becoming a lifestyle. (Important: If you ever decide you want to do anything with your butt you’d better learn about poppers.) I did learn a lot about how pushy and generally difficult to deal with horny guys are to women, very interesting and useful experience. It’s very confusing to try and determine what exactly constitutes “sexual immorality” in the Bible and piece together any coherent sense of what is or isn’t allowed. “Homosexuality” is forbidden right up there next to mandatory tassels on clothing, by penalty of death. Ok, but I think we’ve determined that sexual interest is a spectrum and that there is no such thing as “gay” or “straight.” And then later on Jesus seems to say one thing, Paul says another, and I have no idea if I’m supposed to take the entire book at literal face value as if it was manifested specifically for my quest in the Matrix, or if it really was written thousands of years ago and it’s somewhat reasonable for me to try and form my own interpretation of what the big J really meant. There is no way for me to know, but if it’s actually been around for thousands of years then Paul may have done a little bit of a disservice to some people over the millennia if his interpretation was a little too strict, especially women I would say. Whoops. But then again, death by stoning, says the Lord, but then where are the tassels? Shouldn’t all Christians be wearing them on all their clothes all the time? Lean not on my own understanding, fine, but I feel like I’m getting some mixed signals. Ok, what about sorcery, i.e. drug abuse? Is it all drug use that is forbidden? Clearly not, because that would forbid all prescription medicine. So it’s clearly drug abuse which is used maliciously, like building a massive empire using ruthless tactics, fueled by a raging cocaine or amphetamine habit. Or, whatever Hitler was doing (allegedly!! There’s a lot of evidence on both sides!). Definitely that, not good. For me I think it’s best to continue playing it safe by staying mostly on the conservative side and just mind my own business when it comes to others. Jesus was very clear about the importance of being faithful to your wife, and I believe that has to do with security and trust. I think it’s likely if your relationship is really solid that is possible to expand beyond that if both partners consent, although I’ve never tried it. Jesus did say that “only God is good” and broke several strict religious customs in favor is doing beneficial things to people over adhering to dogma. So it seems to me that the attitude of purity and abstinence which has been promoted by the Church for so long might be the same sort of hypocritical thinking that Jesus was actually opposed to. Or, well, maybe not, that is if the book was indeed intended to be taken literally as a while at face value and every rule in it blindly followed irregardless of source or author or originating circumstance. There is no way to know for sure. My personal opinion at this time is to keep everything in low moderation, avoid notoriously addictive things like opiates (especially because if you need surgery they need to use them to put you under!!), cigarettes, large amounts of alcohol, strong stimulants, etc entirely, and for every harmful thing make sure you do something positive to recover. Just don’t repeatedly hit your brain with the dankest thing possible without recovering. I ended up living in my car and running on a treadmill all day at the gym for several years to recondition myself with that “Are you 18?” button swirling in my head the whole time, and wrote a long angry blog about how women are the devil (they are not, they are absolutely wonderful), so maybe masturbating to porn every day for a decade is not the best plan and definitely avoid it. Be sure about what you make your lifestyle, and don’t try to do some enormous project by yourself, learn to work with others, and don’t try to be smarter than you are, lol. There are a LOT of super smart people out there and I’m sure I’m not anywhere near the top. I am definitely just a very stupid fool, very probably the stupidest of all time. Dear Lord, please forgive me.
Maybe “white” people should do more drugs to chill out, and “black” people should play DDR to get off of them and get some healthier stimulation. I guess that was what I was hoping for, anyway. It is supposedly true that Black people have the best visual acuity, which means it is probably the game for them! But of course Black people should probably handle their own business so I’m hoping they will build and manage it themselves. And then “black” people might end up dropping the n bombs on the “whites” and whip those crackers back to work. (Not literally I hope!) I just don’t like this segregation thing and the seeming cultural differences. I am really sorry for saying it actually because I did afterwards realize the graveness of its history (if history is even real, which I halfway doubt) and felt mortified, I’ve obviously just been on the internet way too long, and free speech seems to be becoming an issue etc. This woke cancel culture is just kind of over the top. If you want to cancel everything vaguely racist, check out William Shockley’s eugenics stuff, who was really just a very smart, sheltered, isolated nerdy guy trying to sincerely and helpfully solve a tremendously important social problem in a scientific way, but uh, definitely people should be screaming to cancel transistors above anything else. Technically, all computers and phones are racist as heck. Except, well, that’s not what racist actually means- it means denying services or discriminating based on ethnicity. A word cannot inherently be racist, but only allowing one race to use it actually is the definition of racism. But yeah, that’s nitpicking a bit, I’ll accept. If you ask me, we should probably give the whole country to Black people and Native Americans and all move somewhere else, but it’s not exactly practical so the only other thing I can think of is technology setting everyone free, or maybe we just need prayer and nothing. Sorry if I come off as clueless, stupid, or naive, it’s probably true, but hey, I took my shot anyway man. Words are spells- that’s what spelling means- but something only has meaning if you believe it does. To me, it’s just a generic insult people use on XBox Live, or a GNAA/eD/kF troll trying to elicit some reaction, or a magic word that makes people work hard, that just happens to have the most unfortunate etymology. In the end though words are just meaningless gibberish that we babble at each other, I don’t think anything actually has any meaning, nothing really accomplishes anything at all. We dig holes and fill them back up and obsess over going to space to look at rocks. There are two sides to everything, all “evidence” is wrong, and just because you “prove” something it only tells only one side of a story. Are we manifesting, did the Lord put it there at just the right time, is it because we are all part of Gaia, or is it just a coincidence? Is the world inside of me or am I inside the world? Is there a difference? DDR is just a game, sex is just sex, everything is either a drug or a tool to make better drugs, everything is about sex. The most “addictive” drugs are salt, fat, and sugar. The whole pharma industry is just a big drug ring (with responsible controls built in) and it’s a lot of what many doctors do. But DDR is indeed “too fun” and “too cool” and “too extreme” just like it says, hence the warnings I suppose. It’s the most addictive game ever probably, but I’m not certain whether that’s a bad thing because it is super fun and really great exercise. I doubt that everyone who plays it is going to go mad or drop n bombs. Just like not all sex or drugs have to be bad or lead to destruction. Jesus didn’t say that, he said to love God, love each other, love your wife, and not to sin (which is really unclear what that is exactly but I think it’s don’t hurt other people, since we are all part of “Gaia,” which is probably who the Lord actually is or perhaps is the child of a father “Gaia”). He did say “on Earth as it is in Heaven” which seems to me to imply that we are making Earth into Heaven at some point, which means we would have genderless angelic bodies, which could mean no more marriages and maybe having lots of queer sex, lol. Are there sex or drugs in heaven? I don’t know, but can you really get rid of them? Maybe the answer is anything in moderation, a little bit of everything. But we are supposed to do the Father’s will and not our own, it’s just really unclear what that actually is, are we not supposed to use our brains at all? Do we really have to be celibate automatons forever, or at some point is our work going to be done and we can enjoy it? I don’t know. I love my wife and I’m extremely happy with her, but I’m old wine in an old wineskin, I can’t judge what the future holds. I just don’t want anyone to get hurt. The whole idea with the DDR stuff was about fitness being less emotionally painful. Team sports tick that box but not everyone likes direct competition or can handle the pressure of being on a team. Running on a treadmill and lifting weights just made me angry and toxically macho from feeling indirectly competitive with the larger men at the gym. DDR kept my mind entertained and focused and distracted me from the discomfort of the exercise, ADHD and all. The game is actually really easy to get good at, it’s basically a typing trainer program with only 4 letters. But is it “demonic?” I’m not sure that’s a real thing, at least in the sense of some invisible gremlin having its claws in your back. I think it’s more like if your brain is a radio transceiver and it gets tuned into a particular channel, which runs in your subconscious like a Linux background process. If it’s a foreign station, it might seem unusual compared to the local channels but I don’t see how that makes it “evil,” it just means the group of humans you consider “neighbors” is at a wider scale. But that might become challenging if it means you have radically different influences than most of your local culture, and you end up behaving in ways that nobody around you understands, then you might struggle to reprogram your subconscious, which could mean meditating, reading, exercising the old fashioned way, or listening to joyous hymns in Church. Maybe technology is not so great after all. Maybe it was a bad idea, I don’t know. I just got so bored with the gym and fed up with the macho stuff and remembered how much fun I had with that game. Maybe someone like me just has little choice but to read the Bible over and over my whole life. I’m just not certain who my “neighbors” are, is it the guy next door? A country or two over? A different galaxy? I don’t know! Even more so, how am I supposed to know if those things are even real, or if I manifested them? Like, is Japan actually real? I mean, I’ve actually been there, but how do I know it wasn’t procedurally generated based on my belief it existed? Maybe I manifested demonic neighbors, for all I know! Sorry if I am an idiot, I am an idiot. I don’t want to be rich or famous, at all, I just wanted to help people somehow with what I thought I knew. Unfortunately, it seems I am learning increasingly more that I know nothing at all.
Peacemaker
I didn’t do anything on purpose, I just figured out the signs along the way. Nothing anyone does is on purpose, it’s how humans work as a singular entity. It’s the Gaia collective unconscious at work, or manifesting, or the Matrix, whatever. It is real, for sure. We are in a spiritual video game. It’s real. And it is incredible. We all won, you’ll see, I promise.
There is no bad guy, everybody’s wrong and everybody’s right. There’s good and bad in everything, it’s all how you look at it.
It doesn’t matter who’s wrong or right, just beat it beat it beat it!
God has divine humor, I think. Omnihilarious? I am the Stupidest Fool, very funny. At least I hope it’s God. I’m not even really sure there is an “Evil One” or a true counterpart to God in that way. There is definitely evil in the world, but that might just be consequences to circumstances or just due to human action. As far as “Good versus Evil,” I kind of thing that human thinking is polarized into two groups, with both sides thinking they are the Good and the others are the Evil. That could just be how the Human Pattern works and progresses things along, what if both sides are actually part of God? In that case, like what Jesus said, it’s not what is external that causes evil, evil is what comes out of the hearts of people, and that happens to people regardless of any side they might be on. Of course, loving God and loving your neighbor are the most important things, but he also stressed the importance of not committing sins, and of doing the Will of the Father. So what I’m trying to determine is exactly what that means and where the balance between those objectives lies exactly, as it seems to me that given that priority order, although your neighbor may be sinning or not doing the Will of the Father, you must still love them as yourself. And, we need to first be certain that our assessment of what is or isn’t sin, and what exactly the Will of the Father is exactly is correct.
I am the stupidest fool ever and I hate myself and everything I ever did. I went crazy and I’m very, very sorry for everything I did and said. My understanding and interpretation of the Bible was very wrong and very stupid.
Jesus is the LORD! Hallelujah!
My family is the coolest in the world. I hope they are tremendously successful, they deserve it. As for me I will read the Bible for the rest of my life.
I kinda figured most of it was wrong but I didn’t know what to do, I just panicked. That’s what they did to me and I remember it working. But I should never have even considered being the judge even the tiniest bit. I’m really sorry for the bad words, my friend Terry said it before he died and I somehow picked up his legacy, I wanted to save him so badly because he worked so hard. Nobody should ever use those words. But I got cornered and shoved and it just flew out.
It’s nobody’s fault, everyone is forgiven, everyone is saved. Jesus is the Lord!!!
Peacemaker
Don’t take anything I say too seriously, about half the time I am joking and the other half of the time I’m probably just dumb!
Although DDR with Church music might be greatπ Who knows?
I might be the stupidest fool ever but I have the greatest family of all time. I wasn’t right about anything!!
I just went mad. I wanted to do something good but I don’t know if it was. Just go to Church and school, maybe don’t listen to too much music. I thought if there is anything good about video games and music it’s got to be DDR because it’s “happy and constructive.” Maybe that’s not as great as I thought. I am certainly no hero. I’m sorry. The fundamental gameplay is excellent and it’s so useful of an invention but I’m scared the music was demonic after all. It seemed harmless but it may have led to this. Jesus is the answer, Jesus is the Lord!!